I feel bad for mc :(( i get that unexplainable guilt about having selfish thoughts. Like thinking youre a bad person for thinking negative thoughts. But that doesnt really make you a bad person, thats just being human. Whats important is not to act on the negative thoughts. His inner monologues always paints himself as some scum but his actions are far from it. I think with maturity we somehow get more secure and confident which helps us through these self-doubts. It took me so long to not beat myself up for envying the life of the people around me, to the point that i deleted socmeds because i made myself believe that i SHOULDNT be feeling envious, and that im evil for wanting other people's lives.
I feel bad for mc :(( i get that unexplainable guilt about having selfish thoughts. Like thinking youre a bad person for thinking negative thoughts. But that doesnt really make you a bad person, thats just being human. Whats important is not to act on the negative thoughts. His inner monologues always paints himself as some scum but his actions are far from it. I think with maturity we somehow get more secure and confident which helps us through these self-doubts. It took me so long to not beat myself up for envying the life of the people around me, to the point that i deleted socmeds because i made myself believe that i SHOULDNT be feeling envious, and that im evil for wanting other people's lives.