It’s not only you and he’s a really good guy, but in all honesty, the MC strongest feelings are with the Emperor. Call it Stockholm or whatever, he can’t stop thinking about out the Emperor even when he’s with Raon. Spoiler… he has the antidote but doesn’t tell Raon about it, so what does that tell you?!
to be fair he's a good guy but in the novel for sure the way it's written it's sometimes supposed to give an ick, sometimes he says real weird shit with his master/sub kink and the MC even catches those things and calls them out in his head. maybe i read it in a wrong mood but whenevever raon had scenes he's always with this odd aura around him, which for sure makes him an intricate character and not just simply a nice guy (in the end, everyone is morally grey). but i think the slight ick is something the author made deliberately and it totally works when you read!
I feel like i've been stockholm syndromed cos i keep getting icked out by the 2nd ml for some reason, wdym he's supressing his lust, is he tryna prove he aint like his brother even tho he is, wdym he wants to bind their soul together, so that mc cant escape him? (This is my brain rejecting a perfectly nice character)