ok maybe im just an overthinker

I can give you my opinion regarding ch. 35-52 in the novel cause I read those but I seen spoilers for the previous chapters and didn't bother to read them. So with that being said my overall opinion the brother isn't a perfect character he has flaws however he isn't a evil person neither. He is constantly praised throughout having a kind and beautiful soul/heart.From not only the ppl around him but from the uke as well. No he doesn't have bad intentions against the uke he is actually very deeply in love with him. He just wants him to be happy,loved, and safe. He's like a sick love puppy. According to the novel the uke says 1 of the reason he couldn't fully be with the brother is because* I'm paraphrasing I don't remember the exact words but it was on the lines of* the brother was too genuine too kind with a pure and good soul and that he himself didn't feel like he deserved him because he is dirty and tainted. And that him being with the brother would only make the brother dirty as well he didn't feel worthy of his love. So basically to me he just talked himself out of good healthy relationship because of his insecurities & he didn't love himself enough to really want genuine happiness. It's discuss many times about how he thinks he's in love with the Emperor and how being with him makes him feel happy & loved.To me it felt like bullshit it felt like he settled with the emperor because he himself felt tainted & dirty and since the emperor is also tainted & dirty he settled & convinced himself that it was true love. All the way to the end he constantly battles with him hating the emperor and loving the emperor & justifies it by saying the emperor doesn't understand emotions so he's determined to help the emperor so that they can remain in love. Which is toxic in my opinion. && Don't get me started about the mom situation I just know she was rolling in her grave. Cause he also constantly talks about how he knows & feels his mother is angry with him for being with her murderer and he also sometimes hallucinate seeing her being disappointed, angry, and hurt that he is with the emperor. I honestly was glad she was haunting his ass cause wtf. But that's just my opinion others may differ.

Kind of agree. I also think he stays with the Emperor to stop him murdering so wilfully. He definitely feels guilty for liking him, but I do also think the liking is somewhat genuine. Maybe in the vein of 'this person loves me and wants me so much, that makes me.feel special' alongside not feeling worthy of the brother. It is hard to explain how he could like the Emperor at all, but the way so many in the comments is simp for him, it's not that crazy I guess.

I can see it from that pov also I think he likes him but not to the extent of love. I honestly feel like he tricked himself into liking and loving the emperor. Because he talks about how he couldn't save his mom the guilt and then he talks a lot about fixing the emperor. So it came across to me as someone who failed saving someone and now has convinced themselves to save this person to replace the pain of not saving the other one. I honestly don't see how he was a redeemable character he didn't even feel remorse or guilt for killing the mom. It was like the uke told him you should feel guilty for killing my mom you should feel remorse and he is like okay I'll do it. However you tell me to feel I'll do it cause idk emotions which then in turn makes it disingenuous to me.&& Tbh the emperor so call love for the uke doesn't feel like real love neither to me. It feels obsessive,possesive and just borderline scary. But yea you right people are simping the emperor so anything is possible