Saeko thinking she is pitiful rubs me the wrong way. It runs parallel to her proclivity for needing control, wanting to dominate and possess so that there is constant reassurance. Saeko continuously pities her ability to be vulnerable and to be transparent of her feelings because it’s hard for herself to do, to be in a position where she can get hurt and simultaneously she thinks it is weak. An oxymoron because showing vulnerability like being transparent of how you feel and what you want and need despite the possibility of being hurt is harder for Saeko to do. It isn’t pitiful that someone can’t adequately hide that they like just being near you and that they like to be in your presence. Almost as if Saeko thinks she can see the entire situation and that she is in somewhat control of how their relationship can change. Like it’s up to her.
Saeko thinking she is pitiful rubs me the wrong way. It runs parallel to her proclivity for needing control, wanting to dominate and possess so that there is constant reassurance. Saeko continuously pities her ability to be vulnerable and to be transparent of her feelings because it’s hard for herself to do, to be in a position where she can get hurt and simultaneously she thinks it is weak. An oxymoron because showing vulnerability like being transparent of how you feel and what you want and need despite the possibility of being hurt is harder for Saeko to do. It isn’t pitiful that someone can’t adequately hide that they like just being near you and that they like to be in your presence. Almost as if Saeko thinks she can see the entire situation and that she is in somewhat control of how their relationship can change. Like it’s up to her.