I saw this being promoted a long time ago on the internet and just recently found it again, but it took me a few weeks to go through it because it was just so relatable. though my mental experiences differ from hers I can relate to this feeling of deep-seated disconnect with yourself since I recently had an depersonalization-dissociative episode. ill turn 21 this year and have yet to have an romantic or sexual experiences with any women, no less any person in general but always love to imagine intimate acts with women like making out, touching and petting, cuddles under blankets, and even the more raunchier things although embarrassingly it makes me feel really shy or flustered even if their imaginations. I feel like society propels sex to be this ultimate prize/end goal in relationships so it’s easy to idolize the dream of having it but in reality that may not be the case. and instead what we really want and desire is human connection. i mean, the author was saddened that she didn’t give the lady a hug! all she wanted all along was a hug! that’s literally so real all i want most of the time is to be held by someone i trust and love!!! Idk a lot of the talking points brought up made me feel so heard for once, and comforted knowing someone else in this world has gone through similar experiences and had similar thoughts as myself. im so touched by her words and experiences. i’ll be reading some of her other works soon but i hope this author is happy and continues to live a great life!
I saw this being promoted a long time ago on the internet and just recently found it again, but it took me a few weeks to go through it because it was just so relatable. though my mental experiences differ from hers I can relate to this feeling of deep-seated disconnect with yourself since I recently had an depersonalization-dissociative episode. ill turn 21 this year and have yet to have an romantic or sexual experiences with any women, no less any person in general but always love to imagine intimate acts with women like making out, touching and petting, cuddles under blankets, and even the more raunchier things although embarrassingly it makes me feel really shy or flustered even if their imaginations. I feel like society propels sex to be this ultimate prize/end goal in relationships so it’s easy to idolize the dream of having it but in reality that may not be the case. and instead what we really want and desire is human connection. i mean, the author was saddened that she didn’t give the lady a hug! all she wanted all along was a hug! that’s literally so real all i want most of the time is to be held by someone i trust and love!!! Idk a lot of the talking points brought up made me feel so heard for once, and comforted knowing someone else in this world has gone through similar experiences and had similar thoughts as myself. im so touched by her words and experiences. i’ll be reading some of her other works soon but i hope this author is happy and continues to live a great life!