mo baby :(

‘i would of forgotten about you a long time ago’ no matter how many times mo attempts to convince himself he tian means nothing to him he cannot bring himself to forget him no matter how hard he tries.

he kept everything that he tian gave him back then everything in that box was a indirect promise to be together forever so when he tian left he would of felt betrayed and abandoned. the retaping of the box and tape over he tians face and confessional words…i can imagine a drunken mo in a state opening that box mourning his love only to feel shame and cover it up again.

he is cold towards he tian now to protect himself but we know he loves him devastatingly soul consumingly so. sober thoughts were revealed in the christmas chapter after all. it hurt he tian to leave mo back then mo was his muse and he was so in love with him but he probably thought mo didn’t feel the same way so leaving wouldn’t hurt him. in this chapter he is most likely realising that is not true.

now we pray for all the miscommunication and emotional avoidance towards their true feelings to be resolved this year (⌒▽⌒)