pil-gyun is levels of psychotic i have never encountered. sometimes i just wanted him to look away, being beautiful cant always save u bc i think he needs to die.
the fact that pil-gyun called nanmu by his name like 3 times in the course of the ENTIRE 71 chapters blows my mind. they’re both fucking ditch-deep bonkers bc why is nanmu encouraging the relationship. a perfect execution of “matching their freak”
there’s this thing that bwat did in this manhwa and also in smyrna & capri (not sure about the spelling of that fuck ass word) where the bottoms have this hard and hurtful relationship with sex and it’s well, I don’t want to say “dealt with” but it’s treated with respect and care. maybe not the normal care here, BUT pil-gyun doesn’t penetrate nanmu at first bc he noticed nanmu’s fear for it and instead uses his fingers and mouth to introduce pleasure into sex. even though in the beginning he didnt know that nanmu was gang raped, pil-gyun sees the fear and soothes it out of respect and love they way it should always be done.
of course we also have nanmu’s horrible self esteem issues and how he views himself, ESPECIALLY in a sexual manner, again bc of the rape. while it seems to be a somewhat present issue even in the end (those types of feelings and thoughts don’t just disappear). the way nanmu dealt with the trauma was by reclaiming some autonomy by having regular anal sex with the men he felt safe during the gang rape, his brothers. i honestly cheered when nanmu was clearly starting to enjoy sex bc it was established that it wasnt something he Liked. i mean, it was clear he Hated it.
sure, part of the reason why it worked out was bc they’re both insane and twisted and frankly unable to have normal relationships. but its also bc pil-gyun was so adamant with his praise and reassurance and tried his best to make sex pleasurable for nanmu. OF COURSE let’s not forget that they’re sex is consensual, maybe not 100% from the start bc it seemed like nanmu was just doing it get pil-gyun off his back but the fact remains that eventually nammu WANTED to have sex bc it felt good and he felt desirable (bc of how insistent pil-gyun was about it) and i just think it’s beautiful.
this story is all levels of fucked but nanmu’s healing of his sexual trauma and rape is honestly wonderful, weird pseudo incest out of the way its golden.
pil-gyun is levels of psychotic i have never encountered. sometimes i just wanted him to look away, being beautiful cant always save u bc i think he needs to die.
the fact that pil-gyun called nanmu by his name like 3 times in the course of the ENTIRE 71 chapters blows my mind. they’re both fucking ditch-deep bonkers bc why is nanmu encouraging the relationship. a perfect execution of “matching their freak”
there’s this thing that bwat did in this manhwa and also in smyrna & capri (not sure about the spelling of that fuck ass word) where the bottoms have this hard and hurtful relationship with sex and it’s well, I don’t want to say “dealt with” but it’s treated with respect and care. maybe not the normal care here, BUT pil-gyun doesn’t penetrate nanmu at first bc he noticed nanmu’s fear for it and instead uses his fingers and mouth to introduce pleasure into sex. even though in the beginning he didnt know that nanmu was gang raped, pil-gyun sees the fear and soothes it out of respect and love they way it should always be done.
of course we also have nanmu’s horrible self esteem issues and how he views himself, ESPECIALLY in a sexual manner, again bc of the rape. while it seems to be a somewhat present issue even in the end (those types of feelings and thoughts don’t just disappear). the way nanmu dealt with the trauma was by reclaiming some autonomy by having regular anal sex with the men he felt safe during the gang rape, his brothers. i honestly cheered when nanmu was clearly starting to enjoy sex bc it was established that it wasnt something he Liked. i mean, it was clear he Hated it.
sure, part of the reason why it worked out was bc they’re both insane and twisted and frankly unable to have normal relationships. but its also bc pil-gyun was so adamant with his praise and reassurance and tried his best to make sex pleasurable for nanmu. OF COURSE let’s not forget that they’re sex is consensual, maybe not 100% from the start bc it seemed like nanmu was just doing it get pil-gyun off his back but the fact remains that eventually nammu WANTED to have sex bc it felt good and he felt desirable (bc of how insistent pil-gyun was about it) and i just think it’s beautiful.
this story is all levels of fucked but nanmu’s healing of his sexual trauma and rape is honestly wonderful, weird pseudo incest out of the way its golden.