Is it possible to suffer that hard? You just taking care of grandma she not ded yet

Nah because the hopelessness of not having money and your family sick and dying is awfuuull

Does that mean the feeling to escape by any means will come? Or varies by people?

It varies by people I guess

Just not being able to do anything to make your life better or save your loved ones no matter how hard you try sucks big time and I kinda get why he'd want to off himself