She is depressed and suffers from body dismorfia, as someone who used to suffer from it I couldn't even go out thinking that anyone who laughed or looked weirdly was mocking me, she is ill she is not in a normal state, she might even think he is using her for fun.
I think it was pretty obvious tho with her sudden changes in emotions, she is depressed and ill so please bear with her
Yeah I get that, as a plus size person myself, I struggled with depression and had I lot of insecurities not long ago, but is the inconsistent thinking that is bothering me. One moment she is "oh this is way better than my previous life, will make the most of it" and the next "I just wanna lay down and die" I get the original grace was depressed and some of the thoughts are still there, but she is not grace and yet she doesn't do shit about anything, doesn't try to change her mindset or talk/write about her feelings NOTHING. She is stuck on the ideia that losing weight is gonna fix all her problems and the author is keeping this idea that she will be happy once she loses weight instead of making her accept who she is, being weight or freckles.
Babe sometimes ppl mood changes like the tide. One moment you think you can change the world another you believe u don't deserve love. Our state of mind is never that consistent, especially considering that she has some form of mental illness. Tbf, we are mentally ill in one way, just varying degrees.
I would say that she focuses on her being fat as that is her main source of self-hate. Or believe to be the problem.(which we have seen 2 encounters making her feel like crap) Some of her actions are redundant or not that helpful but you gotta know a person dealing themselves cannot get all the solution to deal with their problems. She is literally stuck in this world with little to no perspective on how she was treated, who is actually one her side and how she was unalived. In addition to that she has to deal with her illness. Now it's not that realistic for someone with a lot on their plate to be that trusting or be sensible to journal their thoughts, talk it out etc. This is modern day therapy advice, easy to give out but not easy to utilise or make it useful.
It's overall not a super realistic thing to expect
She's not even that fat to begin with, just a little chubby come on, I'm so tired of her being inconsistent and paranoid "my husband killed me, even tho THERE'S NO PROOF" or "he can't love someone this fat" BITCH-- (╯°Д °)╯╧╧
Is painfully obvious that the husband is madly in love with her, so much so that he went nuts when she died, I ended up here after a scene I saw on Instagram, but they haven't posted the chapter yet but I don't know if I can keep up with this bullshit.