im on the edge

every single damn chapter feels like "now they're gonna be ripped apart from each other" i can't go through a single chapter without bawling my eyes like i can't blame anyone of them because both of them were in a tough position. i genuinely feel so bad for the mc cause imagine you spent a whole summer with this old man laughing & eating together but were not allowed to be with him when he was dying & when you finally was gonna see him you get in an accident & the guy you started feeling something for goes in the comma while trying save you. all this happening when your mother was in hospital, you had to pay bills & your younger brother was in school. and oh lord don't even make me begin on the ml