I’m sobbing

I had an introspective think about it awhile back, and honestly it just kinda felt like the author low key hated lesbians. After I thought about it more, tbf. I don't remember a lot of the story anymore, and that could definitely be an over exaggeration from me.... BUT. I'm going to ramble for a bit. First off. There's the title of the story. The pet of the villainess/the antagonist's pet. Obviously that is specifically pointing out Sasha. The main character. BUT, it also highlights Rebecca.... The other part of the title. At the very start, Rebecca has a very active role in the story, she is actively in the foreground of the story. And Rebecca+sasha even have a moment where they say they'll never leave each other. Ok. Awesome! That's great. But then slowly.... Things start to.... Yeah. Rebecca begins to get screwed over at almost EVERY point of the story.... For NO reason. It provides ZERO to the narrative. First off, Rebecca starts to change her diet for Sasha, because she loves her (and that's canon). It's a bit overbearing and that's totally reasonable. She becomes a knight for Sasha and because of that.... Rebecca. Just stops showing up??? From being a foreground character to barely showing up anymore?? And then when she comes back, finding out Sasha was injured from something (don't remember what). She's very excited to give Sasha that healing potion and tell her, that it's okay for Sasha to rely on her more, since she can be a bit distant and kinda pushed away those kinds of gestures..... Only for her to be a tiny bit late because the dragon guy healed her already. And then you'd think. Oh ok, maybe this'll come back again later, it'll surely become a plot point of conflict. Nope! Doesn't come up again. Later, Sasha has trouble with that one guy, and the stale bread green hair guy shoe horned into the story proposes to her. ????? Again, Rebecca is conveniently oddly missing Everytime. They have a talk and she's upset about it. Green hair reassures him, and it makes you think, oh maybe they'll address this more again later. They don't! And the kicker is green hair dude randomly says (paraphrasing, I really don't wanna reread) "maybe in another time period your love would work out". Girliepop. *YOU* live in this time period, that is not YOU saying those words. That's the author inserting an excuse on why Sasha and Rebecca can't get together. The two of you are LITERALLY planning to overthrow the kingdom. WHY, can't the two of them get together if that's the case? Rebecca starts showing up less and less, all her sacrifices for Sasha end up not amounting to a whole lot of tangible things inside the story. Just a lot of suffering just to suffer. And then they pull the, only green hair dude really understands Sasha, like ofc it's the man who does. And none of the women. Or Rebecca (who DOES), understand sasha btw. And to me it kinda feels like... This particular part you can probably ignore, it's definitely me tinfoil hatting. That like. This+the constant denial of Rebecca (which I'm NOT finished with btw). Feels like, to ME. It doesn't have to other people. That the author is low key taking a shot at lesbians, that their relationships aren't really real and that a guy would understand better. I didn't word that properly, but I did the best I could. Ok back to Rebecca. Ok. If Rebecca can't get together with Sasha. SURELY, she can at least get sweet justice vs the prince right? But then dragon dude literally shows up OUT OF NOWHERE????? AND DENIES HER REVENGE???? FOR NO REASON???? WHY?????? THAT ADDS ZEROOOOOOO TO THE NARRATIVE. WHY DOES REBECCA PERMA GET SCREWED OVER BY EVERY EVENT BY CHANCE, AND NONE OF THEM ADD ANYTHING TO THE STORY EXCEPT FOR THE FACT THAT SHE GETS SCREWED OVER. Like ofc it's the canon gay girl that constantly gets screwed over. At least Sasha has plausible deniability, and the main character, so she's safe. And it just makes me so sad. So MADDDDD, that they did that to Rebecca. And for what. From a forefront relevant main character, to a background character. Always screwed over by some unlucky timing. Because she just so conveniently happened to- Every. Single. Time. No reason at all. And this type of unlucky timing. *Only*. Happened to her. Why. Pisses me off every time.