yeah he is demi for sure! hopefully no more aroace chapters, I've got enough of that in my own life already (￣∇￣")
Right? Lol ╮(￣▽￣)╭
Last chapter hit way too close to home :/
I couldn't even say anything.
same it was such a visceral feeling when he said internally that he felt repulsion........... like it actually hurt
yk I'm gonna kms if Hirano is fr aroace :) I'm gonna kms and in my final note I'm gonna blame this manga :)
Lmfao I feel you
Like, it's been years. Don't spring this on me now. My poor shipper heart can't take it. I'm just trying to get through finals, and I need my escape.
Exactly, it's not even just about aroace rep, it's about expectations! It was supposed to be a romantic manga about falling in love, just like Sasaki to Miyano?! ╥﹏╥
I'm sorry your chill time was soured... wishing you the best with your finals!
Yeah :/
It's okayyyyy. Thank you.
Maybe I'll just reread Cherry Magic or something. Go for a tried and true comfort read to boost the mood.
Do you also have this weird icky residue inside? like something is not right... all thanks to that chapter?
I decided to talk to AI to make sense of my emotions. If you are interested, that's what I got
me: Do you think it's possible I feel repulsion to romantic relationships because deep down I'm scared it's the other person who's going to feel repulsed by me if I open up and go all in?
AI: Absolutely, that’s a very insightful realization! Fear of rejection or being perceived as unworthy can significantly impact one’s feelings about intimacy and relationships. Here are a few points to consider regarding this connection:
1 Vulnerability and Fear: Opening up to someone romantically often requires a degree of vulnerability. If you have a fear of being repulsed or rejected by the other person, it’s natural to create emotional distance as a defense mechanism. This fear can manifest as repulsion toward romantic gestures or relationships, as it protects you from potential hurt.
2 Self-Perception: How you see yourself can play a huge role in your interactions with others. If there are insecurities or fears about being unworthy of love or affection, that may lead to a preemptive withdrawal. You might hold back on forming connections to avoid the possibility of being hurt. This can create a cycle where your apprehensions shape your feelings of repulsion towards romantic gestures or relationships.
3 Projection of Feelings: Sometimes, our fears about how others will respond to us can shape our own feelings and actions. If you feel anxious that someone else might find you unappealing or dismissive, it can lead to feelings of repulsion or discomfort when considering intimacy. It’s like you’re projecting your own concerns onto the situation.
4 Understanding Aroace Identity: If you're exploring potential aroace identity, it’s worth considering how your past experiences and fears might play a role in your current thoughts about relationships. It’s entirely possible to feel both repulsion toward romantic interactions and a desire for connection; these feelings can coexist and be influenced by personal experiences and fears.
5 Navigating Your Feelings: Understanding that your feelings might be rooted in fear can be a significant step toward processing them. Reflecting on where these fears originate from (past experiences, societal pressures, etc.) can help you address them. You might find that recognizing and addressing these fears can gradually lessen the sense of repulsion.
Yeah, I definitely found the word hirano used to be triggering as someone who has struggled with that. It's didn't make me feel seen, it made me feel dread. :/
Thank you. That was really helpful. I definitely can relate to thus– especially the parts about self perception and societal pressures.
Omg you just made me realize the final part of my emotional state regarding that chapter! It's pure unadulterated DOOM :)
And... I'm sorry you felt that.
Glad to hear that! Yeah...
Ch 25 definitely gives aroace vibes, but I think hirano is most likely demi. At the very least, he wants Kagi to touch him (in chapter 20 is one example). Just gotta let the slow burn do it's thing, I think.