This shit is ass bruh

Anyway here's my review if anyone cares to why this sucks imo:

*Stopped at chap 28. Some spoilers* jfc, seeing all the comments gush about how cute and sweet these two guys are had me hopeful but i can't get past these chapters. Like, what the fuck?

In the case of Jaeyhuk, Garam is constantly getting dehumanized by his sex partner (ex. paraphrasing but "ew, you're a guy, cover your face while we have sex"). Especially, early on, he doesn't care about Garam's pleasure (go figure). Let the man jack off! Two, when Garam asks him to stop during sex, he doesn't. Not just once, but on multiple occasions!! Sure, during midterms, he bought Garam a new computer and apologized for breaking it, but did he ever apologize for forcing himself onto him, making him hit his head, and not listening when he was asked to stop? No. Those are the real problem and they're fucking nasty. Jaehyuk is a sex addicted freak who doesn't see his sex partner as an equal, but rather an object to help him get off. He was constantly pushing his boundaries and ignoring his needs and GARAM I'M MAD AT YOU TOO. For Garam to continue having sex with him just 'cause he has a big dick makes me violent (extra points since I AM GAY TOO. BITCH WHAT ARE YOU DOING, STAND UP). Sex is not the end all be all as a man in your 20s, you will find someone else with a big dick (or you could even get an 9" toy if that's what you need!!)

Underneath their disagreements and clash of personalities is something more dire if they wanted their relationship to work: Jaehyuk is homophobic and Garam is straight. There is no way for the relationship to work since, speaking to Garam, YOUR MAN DOES NOT RESPECT YOU. First of all, as a gay person, it is insane to have such little dignity to sleep with a homophobic person. To do that, your self-respect has to be fucking non-existent. They detest your entire existence. He continuously calls him a "perverted homo" or "gay prick" (bitch your fucking him, POT MEET KETTLE) even after they fuck. I was looking forward to Jaehyuk's character development, but I don't see how the author could even if "He's had his queer awakening now and is no longer homophobic!" since I find it unlikely my 1st and 2nd points will ever get addressed or fixed (they never do, it's BL).

One more thing, rhetoric I hate in BL (and smut in general), but just because someone is hard or wet does not mean they "want it." When experiencing sexual stimulation, it is a natural reaction for someone to get hard or wet; it does not mean they like it. Hearing Jaehyuk be like, "But your dick is hard, so even though you're saying no, obviously you like it!" had me wanting to strangle him. To be a bit more serious for a second, this rhetoric has real world harm where survivors of sexual assault legitimately have trouble thinking of their assault as assault because they hear, "If you get hard (or are wet), that means you wanted it!" Fuck that.

Ultimately, I'm aware 28 chapters isn't a lot out of the (at the time of writing) 74 chapters available, but it is abundantly clear the foundation of this comic is shit. It's so bad. At times, Jaehyuk was funny, he made me giggle. And Garam was cool, minus the complete lack of self-respect. But there are so many good BLs, and manhwas in general, for me to read, I'm not wasting my time reading this anymore.

All valid points. Especially the real world harm about being hard or wet. It's a thing literal rapists say to their victims and I always think it's disgusting to hear. Honestly Jaehyuk doesn't improve for ages. He does realise he genuinely likes garam but the homophobia is still there underneath. I can imagine it being realistic for someone brought up to think this way. Obviously.not condoning his behaviour in any way, he's an ass. He seems to only want garam back because he can't get hard for anyone else despite trying! That bit always pissed me off.

I get why you dropped. It gets better but there's still plenty for them to unpack as a couple. I personally think Jaehyuk liked Garam from very early in the story and the cognitive dissonance of this guy with overt and internalised homophobia falling in love with a man, is an interesting concept to explore.

Omg I just read the next chaps after 28, do not read, you will hate it! Stick to your drop!!