I dont know what to do anymore was it really worth it for me to come here a part of me is ...

I dont know what to do anymore was it really worth it for me to come here a part of me is happy and thankful that we came here and are working on our skills developing but the other part of me whispers to me that we will never be enough at this rate its the demon in me that i shouldnt listen to but what can i do when everything is getting fucked up and i am getting cornered no one or no where to turn to i am having faith i am having patience but for how long and i know there is no answer or certainty for this question and i have to keep on working hard and even if i fall behind the world will keep running so the only option i have is not to fall behind and keep on running how far how long no certainty i am trapped maybe or maybe not what i left behind feels like heaven compared to this and what i will go for will make this my heaven i need to be walk out my comfort zone i am trying i have to stop worrying about what might happen and go for it i am trying i really am but its the demon in me