Im still in the middle of the story and I relate wooyeon cause no one ever knew that I was going through a hard time and even tried to kill myself. I know a part of that is because I always managed to put up a smile and just go through everyday like nothing is wrong. And when junwoo said "you cut your wrist one time doesn't mean you understand me" just because he saw wooyeon having normal life with job and friends, it hurt me. Cause if I was in the shoes of wooyeon at that time I know it whould trigger me and cause me to spiral down more.... no matter how well put together I look. So later when habit hyung criticised junwoo for his comment, I felt seen. And I'm glad he did because it felt like my suffering is not invalidated just because someone else looks like having much harder time than me. It felt like wooyeon was allowed to be hurt too from what junwoo said and not be like "well he went through this and its understandable that he whould tell something like that considering his depression, and the way he lived all these years. I shouldn't take it that hard to myself. " that why I said it as if my pain is not seen in the face of someone who actually look like going through depression. And I do understand why junwoo said it and why he fail to understand wooyeon's feelings but at that moment I can't help but feel for wooyeon considering my past self
Im still in the middle of the story and I relate wooyeon cause no one ever knew that I was going through a hard time and even tried to kill myself. I know a part of that is because I always managed to put up a smile and just go through everyday like nothing is wrong. And when junwoo said "you cut your wrist one time doesn't mean you understand me" just because he saw wooyeon having normal life with job and friends, it hurt me. Cause if I was in the shoes of wooyeon at that time I know it whould trigger me and cause me to spiral down more.... no matter how well put together I look. So later when habit hyung criticised junwoo for his comment, I felt seen. And I'm glad he did because it felt like my suffering is not invalidated just because someone else looks like having much harder time than me. It felt like wooyeon was allowed to be hurt too from what junwoo said and not be like "well he went through this and its understandable that he whould tell something like that considering his depression, and the way he lived all these years. I shouldn't take it that hard to myself. " that why I said it as if my pain is not seen in the face of someone who actually look like going through depression. And I do understand why junwoo said it and why he fail to understand wooyeon's feelings but at that moment I can't help but feel for wooyeon considering my past self