In few chapters we're about to witness downfall of their relationship. Ahjin gets accused of stealing and betraying Seokju. After that it gets very abusive: confinement, rape, drugging, etc. Ahjin develops addiction and only thing that was keeping him somewhat together is painting in Seokju's office. Seokju pissed off throws it away and burns it in front of him. Ahjin basically says he hates him and won't ever forgive etc. Seokju meets up with woman that was lover of owner of gambling den, they took over in chapter 1. Seokju killed him and she wanted revenge, so she secretly got a job in mansion as help/maid. She's that freckled woman with bangs. She tells him he has too many people in his heart, so it was easy for her to cause a rift by setting Ahjin up to be the traitor "You love too many people" - Very important quote in later story. She taunts him and says he won't be forgiven, if he has enough time to be forgiven. Implying Ahjin doesn't have much time. While this conversation is happening, back in mansion Ahjin is eating his lunch and finds knife in newspaper, first he uses it to cut the cuffs, but he can't do it. Different idea sparks in his mind to get away: cutting his wrists. Seokju rushed back to mansion and all the subordinates are apologising for not paying proper attention and that they can't open cuffs, because only he has the key. They rush to hospital and Ahjin survives, unconscious. Seokju is in his regret/repentance era now. He trying to be gentle and waits for Ahjin to wake up, knowing once he wakes up it's over. Ahjin wakes up and it won't ever be same between them. There's fear. Ahjin questions if he will get punished for attempt etc. They have convo outside in park of hospital and Ahjin is not forgiving. Quote: * "Why handle it so delicately? It's just a hand."
Seokju responded with a face that neither laughed nor cried.
"Because I'm afraid you might break."
Ajin blinked his eyes slowly. Then, he smiled gently, pulling up one corner of his mouth. It was a sneer.
"Boss."
"Yeah?"
"I'm already broken."
Seokju stood stiffly. Even his regularly rhythmic breathing abruptly stopped. His black pupils scattered, as if about to disperse.
Ajin silently stared at Seokju like that.
I'll break as I break, shatter as I shatter, unable to accept your kindness as kindness. Your apologies are uncomfortable. Facing you is painfully agonizing, and the feelings you convey are as heavy as a burden.
The shattered pieces of me are sharp and cold, constantly ready to prick you. Over time, the sharpened edges may wear down.
However, even if that happens, we won't be able to return to the time when your embrace was the most comforting, when just facing each other and laughing made us happy. I will roll through the world in the form I broke until I die.
But who knows? If I am born again, I might become whole. Maybe the Emperor of Jade (deity) will take pity on me, who has turned my blood upside down, and create me well. So, there might be a day when I can simply accept your sincerity and heart.
But anyway, not in this lifetime. * They go back to mansion post hospital. Ahjin starts getting better, but the lady that took care of him passes away, so he's preparing send off, he scatters her ashes in the ocean, as they always wanted to go to beach together and mourns. As Seokju suffers from insomnia and obviously doesn't sleep with Ahjin anymore, it gets very bad to the point Seokju's right handman begs him to help him sleep, so Ahjin does help, but asks to leave estate for this favor...Seokju gifts him a house in good neighbourhood and Ahjin lives there, he also has appointed bodyguard and sometimes they call each other, but that's it. Ahjin starts living good life, cooks, goes to barber, walks around neighborhood etc. But that doesn't last for long. He gets kidnapped by enemy gang, they cut off his finger as message to Seokju, Seokju goes find him and shields him from bullet, the bullet hit him but it still pierces through him and Ahjin is wounded too, they die. Before Ahjin died too he thought something along this lines (Seokju died first in Ahjin's arms) *You bastard, you promised to atone for rest of your life, yet you're the first one dying, i knew you were a liar* --> Ahjin wakes up in modern body in 21st century (i was literally crying my eyes out, then the author said sike and immediately threw me into modern era
In few chapters we're about to witness downfall of their relationship. Ahjin gets accused of stealing and betraying Seokju. After that it gets very abusive: confinement, rape, drugging, etc. Ahjin develops addiction and only thing that was keeping him somewhat together is painting in Seokju's office. Seokju pissed off throws it away and burns it in front of him. Ahjin basically says he hates him and won't ever forgive etc. Seokju meets up with woman that was lover of owner of gambling den, they took over in chapter 1. Seokju killed him and she wanted revenge, so she secretly got a job in mansion as help/maid. She's that freckled woman with bangs. She tells him he has too many people in his heart, so it was easy for her to cause a rift by setting Ahjin up to be the traitor "You love too many people" - Very important quote in later story. She taunts him and says he won't be forgiven, if he has enough time to be forgiven. Implying Ahjin doesn't have much time. While this conversation is happening, back in mansion Ahjin is eating his lunch and finds knife in newspaper, first he uses it to cut the cuffs, but he can't do it. Different idea sparks in his mind to get away: cutting his wrists. Seokju rushed back to mansion and all the subordinates are apologising for not paying proper attention and that they can't open cuffs, because only he has the key. They rush to hospital and Ahjin survives, unconscious. Seokju is in his regret/repentance era now. He trying to be gentle and waits for Ahjin to wake up, knowing once he wakes up it's over. Ahjin wakes up and it won't ever be same between them. There's fear. Ahjin questions if he will get punished for attempt etc. They have convo outside in park of hospital and Ahjin is not forgiving.
Quote:
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"Why handle it so delicately? It's just a hand."
Seokju responded with a face that neither laughed nor cried.
"Because I'm afraid you might break."
Ajin blinked his eyes slowly. Then, he smiled gently, pulling up one corner of his mouth. It was a sneer.
"Boss."
"Yeah?"
"I'm already broken."
Seokju stood stiffly. Even his regularly rhythmic breathing abruptly stopped. His black pupils scattered, as if about to disperse.
Ajin silently stared at Seokju like that.
I'll break as I break, shatter as I shatter, unable to accept your kindness as kindness. Your apologies are uncomfortable. Facing you is painfully agonizing, and the feelings you convey are as heavy as a burden.
The shattered pieces of me are sharp and cold, constantly ready to prick you. Over time, the sharpened edges may wear down.
However, even if that happens, we won't be able to return to the time when your embrace was the most comforting, when just facing each other and laughing made us happy. I will roll through the world in the form I broke until I die.
But who knows? If I am born again, I might become whole. Maybe the Emperor of Jade (deity) will take pity on me, who has turned my blood upside down, and create me well. So, there might be a day when I can simply accept your sincerity and heart.
But anyway, not in this lifetime.
*
They go back to mansion post hospital. Ahjin starts getting better, but the lady that took care of him passes away, so he's preparing send off, he scatters her ashes in the ocean, as they always wanted to go to beach together and mourns. As Seokju suffers from insomnia and obviously doesn't sleep with Ahjin anymore, it gets very bad to the point Seokju's right handman begs him to help him sleep, so Ahjin does help, but asks to leave estate for this favor...Seokju gifts him a house in good neighbourhood and Ahjin lives there, he also has appointed bodyguard and sometimes they call each other, but that's it. Ahjin starts living good life, cooks, goes to barber, walks around neighborhood etc. But that doesn't last for long. He gets kidnapped by enemy gang, they cut off his finger as message to Seokju, Seokju goes find him and shields him from bullet, the bullet hit him but it still pierces through him and Ahjin is wounded too, they die. Before Ahjin died too he thought something along this lines (Seokju died first in Ahjin's arms) *You bastard, you promised to atone for rest of your life, yet you're the first one dying, i knew you were a liar*
--> Ahjin wakes up in modern body in 21st century (i was literally crying my eyes out, then the author said sike and immediately threw me into modern era