hey, jealousy is one of those things that keep getting romanticized as some sort of great form of love through media, but that is really not true. Being jealous, controlling and insecure are toxic traits that can harm your partner, these are all red flags in a relationship. While I understand how hard can it be when you love someone, it is much more important to focus on your own personal safety and happiness. Never forget you deserve love, trust and respect and these kind of signs can unfortunately very often lead to violence.
I wish you well, I want you safety, and please leave if this continues and he refuse to work on his issues
haha yeah I guess, i feel like that'd be soon though. Having to be someone's emotional relief machine while also working 3 jobs ain't fun in the least. Like I could be having the worst day at work then I see my phone and the text is "are u bored of me? you're dry lately"
honestly I'm ashamed how beat up i feel in this relationship sometimes....Like I'm kinda mad I keep letting this happen to myself
I won't lie, I'm one of those readers who actually enjoy yandere semes.... But right now I'm in a relationship with a very obsessive guy and honestly it's not fun at all....
I mean I knew it wasn't something fun even when I was just reading about it in mangas, but having to go through it in real life sure is fucking something. Don't get me wrong, I don't get assaulted or anything that dramatic, but his constant obsession, having to deal with his extreme insecurities, getting into fights because he reads too much into shit, unfounded jealousy (he's legit mad that I stan a kpop group...) and his intensity is so fucking tiring.
I really don't think I can read contents like this no more man, it's making me get ptsd.
Also, yeah I guess I'm trauma dumping but I need to vent this out somewhere because I don't have anyone irl to talk about this.