O don't think its about trauma or PTSD tho. Imagine you live in someone's house, that almost went bankrupt because of your mom but they still askes you to live there with them telling you oh we're still love you what ur mom did to us doesnt matter. Wouldn't you feel awkward and just count your days until you get kicker out?
I mean even if I’m expecting them to kick me out initially I’d see them actually being super nice to me and realize maybe they’re not bad and they actually like me?
it all depends on the person tbh and how they will take it
I’m ngl - sometimes I love this story so much and then at other times it makes little to no sense to me. I understand she thought the books was a prophecy etc etc when she was a child but she’s grown up from the day she first found the book. I know she’s questioning the book now but I fail to see why she hadn’t before.
After the initial bad servants were thrown out of the palace, everyone has been super loving and supportive of her. Sometimes she comes across as so ungrateful for all the love she receives it makes me dislike her.
“Oh she feels like it can be taken away at any point.” Why??? Bc a book told her??? Again, I understand that she was deluded when she was a child but she was growing up? The story just paints her as the world’s most gullible idiot honestly.
I didn’t like the emperor in the start he was a dickhead and yes he was a POS but he’s changed. The story refuses to acknowledge that for some reason and so does Phil - yes he was jackass back when he was drunk 24/7 but he changed so much. That doesn’t erase his past mistakes but I can’t hate him now? In fact her lunatic of an actual father who is ok with constantly abusing his sons and only giving love to Phil is a bit more unliveable tbh.
I like Phil I really do and I was sad her childhood was a miserable one but she was loved growing up idk this whole premise just seems so pointless. On top of that what she read was essentially a fanfiction bc the author hated how Phil was actually loved in the real storyline and going off that this is the real story line-
Yeah I understand trauma and ptsd but her entire ptsd stems from a book she read when she was 8. Past 8, her life has been full of love and care so now it’s just confusing. I understand she had to change herself to recieve a lot of that love but she herself admits she was a bit of a brat. Plus things were gonna get better anyways because in the OG storyline she had a happy ending. Idk I get so confused about this when I think about it but the characters are hot so I get distracted easily,