As an adult and someone who been through the same thing, i suggest you find a boyfriend to do it rather than a stranger. That time i was very curious person and also have high libido, but i was very protected and controlled by my parents, i know what u mean. It's better to do that with someone you love / know / trust, it's for your safety & security too. Also learning sex from a beginner to pro with your partner really fun. Other than that, the top most important thing is to use protection.
BUT JUST REMEMBER whether you do it with someone or a boyfriend/girlfriend, take a health-related test before (for sti or std) for safety, ask your partner as well if they have taken those test
and if they are clean, and try to wear protection!
If we’re talking about Christian beliefs here:
If you’re scared because of being a Christian, don’t worry there’s far more worse ‘sins’ than fucking. Taken virginity before marriage won’t hurt em, it’s not their life to begin with but YOURS.
┗( T﹏T )┛Go and enjoy your youth, your twenties or in whatever age you are! Just be responsible!
I honestly wanna get fucked but I'm so scared of the consequences, and also i grow up in a Christian household sooo what would you guys sayy????