A small spoiler. The translation comes from GT, but it looks decent.
Dong Ru's (Dongim - the younger) perspective: I never thought that my existence would be a curse to others. That was my brother Cheng Lian, the one who suffered because of me. I don't need to care about him, but he is like the red plum that was crushed into mud in the winter. Even if it was ruthlessly trampled, it would still bloom on the branches next year, so tenacious. I thought our love would bring him softness and warmth, but unexpectedly it brought him the disaster of exterminating the whole family, and the culprit was myself. I can't love, nor can I hate, I can't leave, nor can I stay. That's it, let us torture each other and retaliate against each other. So, I want him to live in the fear of losing me forever, let the forbidden love boil in the friction, let the fire of hell devour the two sinners together... I am a thousand piles of snow, he is the 枏 [Chinese giant redwood, Machilus nanmu - Vae] that stays in winter, let us be entangled forever and disintegrate each other.
Vae: Machilus nanmu is evergreen tree, grows slowly, large, highly resistant to decay, so used to build houses and boats.
Cheng Lian's perspective: My life seems to be just a trivial mistake, and the person who ended this mistake is my brother Dong Ru, the person I should hate the most. But he became the only light in my life, and this light was hot and cold, making my eyes gradually blind and my heart full of crazy thoughts... In order to keep this light, all the existences that hindered us have become dead souls under the knife. I don't believe in Buddha, I don't believe in God, only he is my only belief. In the past, I just wanted to live, but now, I just want to imprison him in my arms forever, forgetting time and space, regardless of life and death. So, even if Dong Jin resents me and hates me, even if he wants to take my life, I will not hesitate, I have never, and will never regret everything I have done. He can't escape, and I can't escape either. The world without him is like purgatory, and hell with him is like heaven.
A small spoiler. The translation comes from GT, but it looks decent.
Dong Ru's (Dongim - the younger) perspective:
I never thought that my existence would be a curse to others.
That was my brother Cheng Lian, the one who suffered because of me.
I don't need to care about him, but he is like the red plum that was crushed into mud in the winter. Even if it was ruthlessly trampled, it would still bloom on the branches next year, so tenacious. I thought our love would bring him softness and warmth, but unexpectedly it brought him the disaster of exterminating the whole family, and the culprit was myself. I can't love, nor can I hate, I can't leave, nor can I stay.
That's it, let us torture each other and retaliate against each other.
So, I want him to live in the fear of losing me forever, let the forbidden love boil in the friction, let the fire of hell devour the two sinners together...
I am a thousand piles of snow, he is the 枏 [Chinese giant redwood, Machilus nanmu - Vae] that stays in winter, let us be entangled forever and disintegrate each other.
Vae: Machilus nanmu is evergreen tree, grows slowly, large, highly resistant to decay, so used to build houses and boats.
Cheng Lian's perspective:
My life seems to be just a trivial mistake, and the person who ended this mistake is my brother Dong Ru, the person I should hate the most.
But he became the only light in my life, and this light was hot and cold, making my eyes gradually blind and my heart full of crazy thoughts...
In order to keep this light, all the existences that hindered us have become dead souls under the knife. I don't believe in Buddha, I don't believe in God, only he is my only belief.
In the past, I just wanted to live, but now, I just want to imprison him in my arms forever, forgetting time and space, regardless of life and death.
So, even if Dong Jin resents me and hates me, even if he wants to take my life, I will not hesitate, I have never, and will never regret everything I have done.
He can't escape, and I can't escape either. The world without him is like purgatory, and hell with him is like heaven.