Aaaahhhhh!! Thank you so much for translating! I miss them so much ╥﹏╥
I prefer the chapters where they talk to each other, even argue frankly like that, rather than a cold war. And Hayden in this chapter is really adorable, I need to spread this cuteness.
When Brett said "I want to stay with you for as long as possible. That's why I set a limit" What does he mean by that?
From what Brett is saying it feels like he already has feelings for Hayden but he either doesnt want to acknowledge it as love or doesnt know if it is.
From what I understand, Brett mean: “ I really enjoy being around you, so I will try to do everything I can to make you happy, but I can’t give you what you want, which is love, because I’m not even sure if it’s possible.”
Brett is the type of person who is practical to the point of being mechanical, as seen in chapter 33. Brett has always had difficulty empathizing with others, so it’s understandable that he’s unsure about romantic feelings. He only knows that he enjoys being around Hayden, while Hayden clearly wants more from Brett, but Brett can’t pay a price he’s not sure he can afford
Brett seems to enjoy the dynamic of this “chasing” situation, even if he hasn’t fully acknowledged his own feelings yet. However, it’s clear that Brett recognizes Hayden isn’t someone easily replaced. Their connection goes beyond just physical chemistry, there’s a chemistry between them outside the bedroom too. Brett’s frequent visits to Hayden’s place and his desire to spend time with him, getting to know him better, show how much he actually enjoys spending time with Hayden. Hayden offers Brett something rare- a person he can truly be himself around. For someone like Brett, who may often feel the need to put up a front, that sense of freedom must feel refreshing. He’s even admitted on more than one occasion that he enjoys Hayden’s company more than anyone else’s these days. It’s obvious Brett wants to keep Hayden in his life for as long as he can. And right now, with Hayden’s full attention focused on him, it’s the perfect opportunity.
What I love about Brett is his honesty. He could easily fake feelings or pretend to fall for Hayden, but instead, he’s upfront about his uncertainty, he doesn’t know if he’s capable of developing those kinds of emotions because he’s never experienced them before.I can’t wait to see how Hayden tries to win Brett over!
Oh my god thank you so much for translating this I was having a hard time and struggling to read this moment. I love the honesty from brett he’s clarifying and even have to tease Hayden in the end as well as Hayden himself is still taking the initiative! I am mostly just worried what will happen in the future
So i got bored with this series lately for some reason….but new chapter is super cute is bring my love back, because Hayden finally take action thank god
Anyway it’s cute so i translate it
Brett: Last time, you kicked me out with just my underwear on.
Hayden: …I called you here because there’s something I need to talk about.
Brett: …Get in the car.
Brett: I’m listening, but I hope it doesn’t take too long.
Hayden: …Is that how you listen to others?
Brett: If not, just stand up and leave right now.
Hayden: …If you had stayed longer that day, I was afraid I would lose control. I’m sorry.
Anyway, there are things we need to discuss, not just about sex.
Brett: …Seems like you’re misunderstanding something, so let me make it clear.
I never had any intention of leaving you.
We’re about to graduate.
The one who regrets the most is me.
(Graduation in the US usually happens in May or June when the spring semester of the 4th year ends.)
In both life and career, I won’t let you suffer.
I don’t understand why you always decide on things and then tell me about them…
Hayden: …Still, nothing has changed.
You know what I want.
Brett: I remember when we went to watch a play.
Apart from you not wanting to see our relationship as a date, I didn’t know anything else.
Hayden: If this relationship is just about dating and eventually doing a threesome, I don’t need it.
You mean that could still happen, right?
Brett: I’ve never done that, and since you didn’t like it, I said I wouldn’t.
So, is exclusivity enough for you?
Hayden: Don’t pretend not to understand and play with words with me!
Brett: …Since this relationship started with me deceiving you, I’ll try not to lie anymore to maintain trust.
If what you want are romantic events or a formal relationship…
I can go along with that.
But you don’t want just those beautiful formalities, you want something deeper… like love, right?
But I can’t guarantee a feeling that has no shape, and I don’t want to either.
Even if I try to keep you by showing you that everything will be fine…
Eventually, you won’t feel enough and will get tired and leave.
It’s all too predictable.
I want to stay with you as long as possible.
That’s why I set a limit.
Hayden: Are you projecting experiences with others onto me?
You’ve never tried it with me.
Brett:…
Hayden: Can you explain better?
You find pleasure in imagining yourself falling from the position you’re in.
But you don’t actually want to fall.
That’s why you turn to me, someone from a different world, not anyone around you.
You want to use me as a tool, right?
That’s why you never had the intention to change.
I know that even if I listen to your half-hearted comforting words, the feeling will only improve temporarily. Nothing will change.
Don’t think you’re the only one who understands me.
I understand you too.
Think carefully. Without me, you’re alone too.
Brett: …After hearing you, I think…
Living like this, always being judged, maybe it’s better to be a little lonely, like you said.
Hayden: Wait..! I didn’t mean to judge you!
What I mean is…
Don’t push me out of your boundaries like this.
At least give me a chance.
I know chasing you is part of it!
I’ll try to change your mind…
Brett: Pfft! Who says “chasing” like that…
Isn’t that something only in books?
Hayden: Stop making fun of me…!
Brett: I was really annoyed earlier.
But since it’s so ridiculous, the anger disappeared.
Your “threatening” was awful…
Learn to negotiate better next time.
You’ll have to sign a lot of contracts later, right?
Hayden: Negotiate what…
You’re not an option for me.
You’re not something I can consider, like those cars you change every time, looking for the best one.
Now, other than you, I don’t need anyone else…
Brett: Are you secretly blaming me now?
Hayden: No… sorry.
Brett: …So, what do you plan to do?
Hayden: What?
Brett: You said you were going to “chase” me.
How are you going to make me happy?
Going to drag me to another boring play?
Hayden: No…
Brett: It’s the end of the year. Do you have free time?
How about this weekend?
Hayden: I have a supporting role scene and… an interview for my graduation thesis.
Brett: So that’s a no, right?
Then there’s Christmas.
What will you be doing?
Hayden: Normally, I would go to my relatives’ house in Germany with my family…
But this year, due to my schedule, those plans were canceled.
Instead, I’ll be at my parents’ house in San Diego for a few days.
Brett: Hmm…
Hayden: …Do you want to come with me?
Brett: What?
Hayden: I’ll bring you back before Christmas Eve.
Brett: That’s… a bit too fast, don’t you think?
Hayden: It’s still two weeks away.
Didn’t you already have your schedule full?
Brett: No…
I didn’t mean it like that…
I really liked this chapter lol
Hayden has really grown up, finally taking the initiative, now i wait for Brett turn haha
A few chapters ago, I was feeling a bit boring because there was no progress, but this chapter made me go aww, even though they’re still both kind of dumb, at least they finally cleared up the misunderstandings from Season 1.