rereading it again to feel pain

Coffee November 21, 2024 11:22 am

i think i changed my mind. the first time i read this i felt that even if he met the doctor first and had been with him, its not guaranteed that he will have a happier life. after all, jiang was also like that in the beginning of their relationship.

however, after reading the novel, zhishu said that jiang met him when he was still pretty and young (at this best) while doctor ai met and loved him at his worst state. it goes to show that in another life, had he actually gotten to medical school, met doctor ai at the right age and both of them falling in love, he would have dealt with less heart aches. he might not have disappointed his parents the way jiang and him did because he is already an established working person. and even if he and doctor ai split ways, i believe that it will not be the way jiang ever did.

jiang got drunk in power. he had nothing then had everything. in the novel he would often be described as bossy and tyrant, it’s because when he became president he had the power to do so now. unlike doctor ai who had been wealthy to begin with. not saying it is a 100% guaranteed that doctor ai will be faithful to zhishu forever if they were the couple to begin with. just saying that i think he will not sleep around and keep zhishu in the dark, kept at home and take him away from his family.

also, i hate everyone who turned a blind eye to jiang’s infidelity . i think its hypocritical of jingwen to be THAT angry. likeee he also didnt do anything when zhishu was still there. the fuck?

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