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Lallei November 17, 2024 8:21 pm

No matter how much author might try to make yohan pitiful but nah I will still hate him wdym ur trying to feel his pain by only cutting ur plan with a blade when U literally hospitalized him with broken bones, that shit ain't comparable at all! I really wish he could've at least gotten a good beating from mc/ml....then it would've been better. I feel like it was too easy how they ended that part, mc went through all that but hah........

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    natus_ka November 19, 2024 2:32 am

    I actually disagree. Getting beaten up would have been way too easy. It may not seem like it, but guilt and regret are extremely devious punishment. And the nightmares and hallucinations are signs of it. It's way worse then just getting beaten.

    The way I interpreted the palm cutting wasn't "to feel minjae's pain" in the physical sense but in the emotional one. Yohan wants to know how being hurt by someone you were once close to feeld, but since his wounds are self-inflicted he cannot experience it, which is why he says "instead of shedding tears I bled".

    In the panels after that yohan asks the minjea from his nightmares to hurt him. I interpret that as regret and when it is denied by the imagined minjea it is also a realisation that Yohan doesn't deserve neither to get his guilt lessened (by offering to get revenged on) nor to experience emotional connection with minjae (by experiencing getting hurt by someone who was important to you at one point).

    And the guilt I am talking is actually very real. Yohan was an awful human but he did admit that the last beating hi gave minjae was because he was under the influence of drugs. He never intended to go so far. And even before that he showed small signs of regret upon realising minjae was leaving him.
    Honestly, I really like yohan's character from the analytical perspective because there is much more to him than just being abusive mad asshole.

    Anyway, If you think about it, Yohan's punishment is actually freaking scary - eternity of feeling guilt, regret, and loss.