I have never been in love so maybe that is why I can't relate to MC, can someone please he...

Personally I agree with you that I would never put up with an asshole like that. But sometimes people fall in love with who a person was and not as they are now. I think Haekyeong is still holding on to that feeling when he felt genuinely cared for and loved for the first time in his life. It’s only a matter of time before he realizes that person doesn’t exist anymore. And he’ll have to let go of the past and move on from him.

I think he stay on his comfort zone, he like to see some of that jerk side like being cute etc. But on the other side he also feel bad with how they relationship go, like why that jerk didn't care at him like he was. But well it still better than putting more stress by ending relationship. It will make you feel like losing something and he didn't want regret it maybe? Or also he afraid he can't move on so he stay on the comfortable zone. I mean he's been isolated by they jerk. So it his first time to have someone like ML. But he also feel bad to ML cuz he think he using ML for his own relief or benefit since ML so kind to him. But liking and disappointed is almost like his daily basis even tho he hate it, it already become his comfort zone. So yes it kinda challenging to be out of your comfort zone.

Thank you for your reply, so it is like been in love of the feeling they used to have, but if I remember correctly, he never was nice with him, in some glimpse in the 0ast he called him disgusting ( please correct me if I am wrong ). But I get the idea of having hope to go back to what is was before !

Thank you for your reply, that is one way to look at it, I personally like staying in my confort zone, but once that confort brings more pain than peace, better believe that I am out ! And my question isnt just about this couple but many ! That I get reaaaally angry with the big question : WHY ???? I rather stay single all life than live in agony with the wrong person !

Yeah it’s definitely like being in love with the feeling or the past version of that person rather than who they are now. A lot of women unintentionally end up doing that in irl when they fall in love with who their partner could be rather than who they are. And in the flashbacks it seemed like when they first first met as kids he was just like a normal friend to him except from keeping him away from his older brother. Haekyeong hadn’t felt care and love from anyone really so any amount of it probably felt euphoric. That makes someone very vulnerable and even people who started out kind can get comfortable and start taking advantage of that vulnerability. It seems that he started being horrible to Haekyeong around when he confessed to him in HS. But by then Haskyeong was probably in love with the friendly version of him for the past several years.

Yupp. And right now i think mc still relatable u know when bad habit keep coming u will say "ah i will stop this" but we still keep coming back to that bad habit. U know the moment he said "i won't live up my expectation" but he still like look at the jerk photos. It already pattern that he delay the moment to out of his comfort zone. And the last chapter is the spark that will make mc more stronger and maybe cut off that jerk filthy from his life (A WILL since he recognize ML kindness to him and caring while his brother is opposite that will ruin him). It was for his current situation.


But for his before situation when MC got peach from that jerk even tho he know mc allergy to it. I also questioned it. He suppose to cut off at that right moment . Well since it already be his bad habit so i kinda try to explained the way i see it.

I got you ! I like that these mangas somehow teach us who not to be !

Looooookiiing forward to that arc ! I would be overjoyed!

personally from what i understand i think rather than saying it is fully about his love for him, it is more of a dependent relationship, the story mentioned sir jerk being his friend since young and he was there in the times when mc was feeling down (despite not being the most helpful) but even then as a person who only thinks he has that one person in his life that he could lean a shoulder against, the only one single light that shines, they would be blinded by that light and not even look at their surrounding.

simply put, imagine it as ur only best friend for years, its not something you could just throw away, especially knowing the uncertainty that is there even another person to accept you, like mc mentioned before he doubts himself as someone not likable. so how the ml is pushing himself constantly towards mc and how he affirms him once in a while is somewhat of a nice tactic to reel in this type of low self-esteem that is dependent on an emotional abuser

but ofc whats above is my analysis towards mc's emotion towards sir jerk, take it as a pinch of salt

Appreciate your reply ! I see what you mean ! True that I kever was in love but I try to walk in the person's shoes as much as possible to understand their feelings and what they are thinking, but I fail each time in these cases and keep asking why, so I appreciate your replies. My only joy for now is waiting for the MC wake up call !

that's very understandable, i myself also never really experienced love, but from what ive read, and from my interest in psychology, I can decipher that much from them. It's a fun past time understanding character motivations and the actions that follow. Truly tho, we're getting a step closer to seeing mc finally moving on and im excited for it

Agreed ! Can't wait to see that ! And see that little pest lose the person putting him first all the time !

see how he's nice to him sometimes? uke is being manipulated into thinking that he has a chance, lol like if he keeps acting in accordance to what that asshole wants, he'll keep having this glimmer of hope that maybe they will get together, but more often than not, the asshat is just using uke as emotional support or someone to dump all his stress but im telling you its not love that he feels for him, he's anxiously attached due to that guy's tactics

Makes sense ! False hope is the most dangerous! Nothing I hate more than manipulative devils !!! I hope he gets karma ASAP ! I am waiting for that soooo baaaad !!

My first situationship was like that.

We met in college, and we were in the same group of friends. Through random friendly talk we realized we were pretty similar to each other, so at least in my mind, I could understand him pretty easily. We wanted to experience new things, come out of our shells, have meaningful relationships and make memories, something we had not experiences in school. It only took one single time I was at my most vulnerable emotionally, where he comforted me in his awkard way, that I started to see him romatically. Why him and not the other people that also were there for me? I don't even know, the heart does what the heart wants. Time passed, and my feelings for wanting to see him happy, and me being happy as a close friend of him only grew. When the chance appeared, I took the first step to become something more with him.

That's when I fucked up. It was quite obvious I liked him, and it was quite obvious he appreciated me, but wasn't sure about how to handle me without hurting me. It was the weirdest push and pull from him. We made a physical relationship, my first, his second. That's when he slowly started to change.

I was making efforts to be liked by him, so when he called I went, when he talked I agreed, when he laughed I did as well. All our conversations ended up with me asking so I could know him better. I could do all this because again, I felt we understood each other.

He probably started to lose respect for me, first as a woman for giving my body so easily to him, then as a friend for changing our relationship so drastically, then maybe as a person for letting such a one-sided relationship go on to my detriment. No one likes a pushover, but since he was also a pushover himself, I thought we migth as well be fated to be.

He started to make comments about me to our friends behind my back. They were mild friendly banter, not different to how he treated the boys, but it was a change of how he used to interact with me and any other girl. I assumed it was a show of intimacy, so I let it pass. Then he would make mean comments to me in private, never agressive, just spiky, but I knew that was his way of showing he cared and wanted me to be better, so I let it pass. Then he started to be degrading and sexual towards me in public even when I told him to stop, but I knew he liked to tease me and I liked to be wanted by him, so I let it pass. He would ultimately do all of the above in the meet ups with our friends, and when it was too much for me to handle and I confronted him, he would eventually show remorse, bring up his troubled upbringing and be so sensible, so true and so vulnerable, my heart would remember how similar we were, how he was the closet person I had ever had in my life, how warm I felt when he comforted me that first time, how much time and commitment he had given me and me alone even when he didn't like me the way I liked him. He would even show interest, flirt and talk about hookups with girls both around and in my face, but he (almost) never went through with it because just as me, he was all bark and no bite, he would come back to me after running away from the messes he made.

Over and over again, to the point I would have anxiety whenever I saw a glimpse of him, always praying to only see him in private so he would not humilliate me, or make me feel worthless, ugly and useless, and I could see his kind nature again.

I could only give up when I was in a new emotional crisis, yet he never showed the care that had made me fall for him in the first time. It was not all pain for me, and it was not always just entertainment and a superiority complex for him, so it took months of enduring that shit for me to wake up.

So yeah, that's why the MC would stay with the jerk of his crush. The crush is also a very straightforward possesive manipulator since childhood, so that made it easy for the relatinship to last so many years.

Anaways, thanks for reading my trauma dump,hope it serves as a warning.

Thank you so much for sharing your experience! I am so sorry you went through that ! I hope you are in much more great place and in peace with who you are ! It is disgusting how people change the moment you show that you like them and that you care about them ! Agh agh agh !!!!!!