I also lost my grandma on 2020 to covid and she was a big part of my life. After I lost her, I didn't know what to do, I started locking my self in my room and just stopped doing anything I ever used to do. I have a very complicated mind so it took me longer than a average person to process the loss and until this day I still cry at random times of the day whenever I think about her. And after losing her I lost my pets and my aunt so now it's even harder for me. I think it might be because of all the losses I've had in my life but now I don't feel as much grief when I lose someone and its hard for me to cry now even when I want to which is the reason it comes at random. I have to wait long periods of time for my emotions to build up in order for me to let them go and i don't even feel when it's coming. I just wanted to let go of some things when I read this because I know how the bottom felt and it hurts me to think about it again.
I also lost my grandma on 2020 to covid and she was a big part of my life. After I lost her, I didn't know what to do, I started locking my self in my room and just stopped doing anything I ever used to do. I have a very complicated mind so it took me longer than a average person to process the loss and until this day I still cry at random times of the day whenever I think about her. And after losing her I lost my pets and my aunt so now it's even harder for me. I think it might be because of all the losses I've had in my life but now I don't feel as much grief when I lose someone and its hard for me to cry now even when I want to which is the reason it comes at random. I have to wait long periods of time for my emotions to build up in order for me to let them go and i don't even feel when it's coming. I just wanted to let go of some things when I read this because I know how the bottom felt and it hurts me to think about it again.