i feel very conflicted about this

SOPASOUPSOUP ✦ すーぷ November 10, 2024 2:17 am

the premise is good, and im very sure the intention for this was also a good one but after volume one it absolutely fails to continue with that — well not exactly, but the story goes in another direction

volume one is great, i cried, still it had a lot of issues (especially regarding the age gaps, that's pedophilia, DON'T sugar coat it, wished the author said it for what it is)

i think volume one did a great job, but i feel like i fail to understand it (skill issue of mine LMAO), i think the author wanted to make Miura and Jun like Freddie and Mary but it fails miserably because Miura never has any sort of development or understanding of gay people — she literally is the same as when the story starts, the whole 'BL star' and 'God is a fujoshi' honestly disgusted me so much that my stomach felt ill

I also failed to understand the ending of volume 1/start of volume 2 with the whole speech situation, maybe it was just me and my personal opinion but i felt that the kiss (and several other contact) between Miura and Jun was so unnecessary, I felt very confused during that part, plus Ono telling Jun to man up was so uncalled (???) like (?????????) wth. But even if the kiss wasn't unnecessary i think the meaning wasn't really explained throughly? or even implied

i lowkey feel dumb for not understanding the intention with Miura still wanting to date Jun, a part of me just sees it as a annoying straight girl who doesn't want to give up, but i know she doesn't mean any harm. i just think it wasn't very well explained in the manga, maybe i'm wrong or maybe it was better in the novel, miura as a character was pretty bad tbh


Something i disliked very much was how the author doesn't really call out homophobia; now I know 'Jun doesn't really care' but a it does affect him, and you'd expect that in a story about coming out as gay, it will talk about homophobia, but... it doesn't (and it's disappointing). It kind of just dismisses everything (Ono, the classmates, the teachers, etc. and even Jun) into a sort of 'oh they are not really homophobic', especially in the scene where Ono asks Ryouhei if he feels uncomfortable with Jun, because like ?????????????? wth , it's okay if he feels uncomfortable that's not bad, but it's not the same as the rest of the classmates bcs he still tries to understand Jun and cares for him while the other are literally insulting/mocking him

Another thing is I feel like the author wanted to show a lot of gay people's burdens with the AIDS/HIV but didn't delve into it(????) like, it was always vert lightly mentioned, they never really focused on it even though Mr. Fahrenheit's cousin (I refuse to acknowledge him as his lover, that's fucking sick) died from it, and Mr. Fahrenheit himself had HIV.

Also I felt it was weird af that Jun just comes out to his class straight away, like, that's so unnecessary, it's okay if you're proud of being gay, and thar he finally accepts himself but it's fucking dumb that he's outing himself, especially in a country like Japan, and it feels even more stupid that everyone is okay with it (?????) like, no dude, you're gonna fuck your social life even before it starts.





i'm tired and um didn't proofread this, sorry if i don't make sense, but anyways, um don't read this, it's just not good
there are way better stories regarding sexuality and this one isn't one of them, i would even say it is a very negative one bcs of all the stuff it lacks

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