I am rn at ch 50 and tbh shit, this is shit, i mean 8 years is too fucking much to hold on...

I am rn at ch 50 and tbh shit, this is shit, i mean 8 years is too fucking much to hold on this much, seriously are they on the spectrum, are they restarted? I hate not finishing what i started but this one was really not it sis, find another one lol