Responses
Such a great way to put it, I was enjoying it until Homin went to his sex friend and didn’t even seem like he felt guilty for doing that to Hyesung. It was hard to finish reading after that, I really wanted to like Homin but he wasn’t considerate of Hyesung in the slightest T-T
╥﹏╥ yeah, Homin just did Hyesubg dirty. It's unforgivable..
Homin is lucky that Hyesung is such a great guy! Hyesung is super green! He's warm, affectionate, sweet, romantic, honest, gentle and most of all very understanding.. I understood that the reason why Homin left and ran away was because he got scared of how strong and intense his feelings for Hyesung. But at the same time he was also waiting for him, for Hyesung to look and find him.. But the moment that he did, he denied knowing him.. These are the things I didn't like about the story:
1. Hyesung (seme) basically looked for him for 3 yrs. that they were apart. He succeeded in finding him, but Homin (uke) denied knowing him when they finally reunited after 3 yrs.
2. Hyesung chased after him, confessed to Homin, then they made love. He responded to Hyesung's confession using sex.
3. After they made love, Homin went to his fuck buddy Gyumin Hyung for comfort?! He literally just had sex with the guy he has feelings for, for all these years, then you went out and spread your legs to someone else only to imagine being fucked by Hyesung (coz he asked Gyumin hyung to fuck him blindfolded so that he would feel less guilty using him as a substitute, while imagining Hyesung and calling out to him while being rammed by someone else) That's so fucked up. I know that they haven't really established that they're officially dating, but damn! Even if he's scared of the future outcome for the 2 of them, he still didn't need to fuck someone else while processing his feelings and emotions right?
I was actually happy that the hyung tried to knock some sense out of him and even advised that they stopped being fuck buddies. That's because Gyumin hyung knew that he's really just a substitute, a replacement, a rebound... And now that both Hyesung and Homin knew they have feelings for each other and even made love to each other, he knew he should be the one to draw the line coz Homin is so stupid and a coward.
4. When Hyesung confronted Homin about his relationship with Gyumin, I hated that Homin was beating around the bush! If he was scared and anxious about it, the more that he needs to let Hyesung know the truth. He made Hyesung doubt himself, his standing in their relationship. He hurt Hyesung.. To me, Homin is just self centered. It's always "about me, about my feelings" and not about "how would Hyesung feel? What would I do to make Hyesung feel secured and loved?"
I only like the story because of the Hyesung. But if this is reality, I wouldn't want Homin as his boyfriend.