Thanks for putting it this way. I didn't think about Jay's reasonings. I was thinking he was selfish and being a little bitch instead of worrying for Yoohan. But after reading your statement it makes sense.
Why do you think he cut himself? What does it signify? Him saying Yoohan is killing him or prefers to die and not answer...?? What are your thoughts?
Oh you are not wrong (￣∇￣") he is very selfish, the only reason Jay is trying to "understand" Taemin is def not because he CARES about his feelings lol, but because he knows Taemin has not explored his own feelings ever and Jay finds the exploration and Taemins innocent reactions to his teasing and persistant pushing, all very AMUSING (≧∀≦) (cant blame him ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶)
Jay is trash haha at least his selfish intentions are, but he is being "mindful" and "PATIENT" (3 months of serenading, dancing to Taemins tune, and wait for Taemin to desire sex with Jay, was a lot for him haha)
Jay does worry about Taemin but feels jealous (YES JEALOUS HAHAAHA so immature) of Taemins focus being the yellow haired annoying twink (his nemesis, the one that killed Taemins bro).
Considering Jays hard work did not help Taemin, Taemin got into several risky situations, Taemin keeps refusing help from anyone (even sent the bodyguard that Jay sent to protect HIM to the sweet guy)... Jays desperation, anger and frustration lead to the cut.
Its a representation of Jay willing to risk his life to save and help Taemin. Jay wants Taemin to understand his determination and to make it clear, "if you ever get hurt again, I will hurt myself too"... Jay is such a romantic guy lol
Do keep in mind Taemin is very not in touch with his own feelings, hasent developed much self introspection (which makes sense given his past and all), and tbh I find Jays decision to get the cut the "easiest"(CRAZIEST) way to "send the message" to Taemin. Remember how Taemin keeps saying that Jay "speaks in riddles" but Jay has very good intuition and knows how to read people very well.
I think I love this series by how the adults are represented, not being dumb af, being smarter and more experienced than the younger charactersヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
FINALLY Jay asked Taemin in his own words "do you really want to die after your revenge? Or do you not want to think about anything and just continue being suicidal...”
One last thing
When Jay watched the "suicidal scene" from the movie Taemin "acted", thats where he realized how bad Taemins mental situation was. We all know Taemin is not good at acting but he so happened to make that scene iriley with perfection, to the point where everyone felt uncomfy watching a very realistic suicide attempt. Most ppl dont know how attempts are cause THEY ARENT SUICIDAL, its hard to act it out even for pros.
Watching that scene really scared Jay and made him feel like he had to be there for Taemin, and then he finds him laying on the floor full of blood and hurt... It seems like an accident but it was pretty suicidal of Taemin to not ask for help and to do everything alone. TAEMIN DID NOT WANT TO ANSWER THE PHONE. He accepted his death rather than try to be saved...
And all of this culminated to the cut
Enough typing for today ヾ(❀╹◡╹)ﾉ~
Jay is trying (in his own fucked up and non healthy/sane way) to heal Taemins "scars".
Taemin has been carrying his "guilt" as the sole reason for his existance. He transformed it into "revenge" after 5 years of self punishment and now focuses on doing anything necessary to achieve this "revenge", even putting his life in danger (he's suicidal, no doubt).
Jay after understanding Taemins intentions and determination, he has fallen for him and wants to "fix him", or at least "fix his focus to something else".
Jay understands that in order to genuinely help Taemin, he must "prove" to him his determination to "fix" Taemin... And considering how Taemin refuses to ask for help and risks his life for others, Jay is angry that his hard work is not helping him much, but rather pushing Taemin to further get into risky situations.
Jay is crazy lol he is def black flag but I love it, its so toxic and insane but damn, these characters and the story is all so good and well done ლ(´ڡ`ლ)
Taemin is a manly, strong and determined (suicidal) bottom, Jay is a stubborn, smart and impatient af top
Love their dynamic, can't believe it been less than 3 months in their time line and the manager and sweet guy STILL dont know Taemins bro and mom are dead... This is a slow burn but the delayed gratification is DELECTABLE AND SO WORTH THE WAIT (▰˘◡˘▰)