I'm not defending the ML, but this condition makes having any kind of normal relationship extremely difficult. There are a LOT of facets that seem extreme, and I wouldn't wish this on anyone who was as clueless and defenceless as the MC.. I mean, even if you ARE aware it's no walk in the park.
he's likes a little kid. a kid might know they did something wrong but not understand why its wrong. like he said he can see how to behave/act based on what people want but doesn't see anymore than that or why its necessary. he will act a certain way to get what's he wants cuz he knows what he has to do to please someone. He will lash out cuz he doesn't know how to express himself, but doesn't realize that's wrong. Like a pet doing something they know they're not suppose to, then trynna act nice or pull puppy eyes on you. right now im pretty sure he was feelings for uke but since he doesn't understand such feelings & doesn't know how to behave/act he's probably having an internal clash. b/w behaving how he normally behaves vs him knowing its not working or its not enough
So complicated, because how do you deal with something like that... Also MC has some kind of vulnerability since he was home schooled during his childhood if I remember correctly, but damn
The situation itself is so complex, it really reduces to what mc chooses to do, and unfortunately mc is, how to say it, he also has some major inner problems
this is kinda hard to comprehend to me, if he has this disorder that makes it hard for him to empathize or feel or understand emotions and has been violent and disrespectful to mc, how is he able to say everything he said in this chapter or to explain what is mc to him, what I'm trying to say is, he is being mellow-y rn, when his most realistic self has been aggressive towards him, and when he has been nice is to get the mc to do something or keep him wrap around his finger... Haha sorry for all the yapping my final point is MC HAS SUFFERED ENOUGH TO RUN OUT OF TOLERANCE OR FORGIVENESS TOWARDS ML that's what I'm trying to say. I know it's a disorder but he's in red numbers now.