I’ll look into it , best not to trust people on tiktok , the lack of comprehension and character analysis is astounding with most of the fandom I don’t think he loved Ivan in the same romantical sense , but he loved him in their own complex way. Tills feelings towards Ivan are complex . With mizi , it was more like admiration . It’s common for feelings of admiration and adoration to be mixed up the with the “innocence of first love” that’s what first loves usually are . No doubt he liked mizi in the purest of firsts loves sense .That’s how it is with mizi and sua on both ends (though mizi and sua love is most likely reciprocated towards each other I believe
I just spent all night completely sobbing over Ivan and till , not even the actor au can heal me right now. anyway the main character in “ Top Star Sent by God” kinda looks like Ivan , y’all should give it a read