You're the only one with media literacy in this whole comment section lmao
Did she apologize?? Idk saying "I don't think I can support you guys" is pretty shtty imo. Like who is sheee??? She's literally focused in someone else's life that she somehow did not notice her grandma with DEMENTIA got out. I get the whole "I don't want you to feel sad and lonely!!" Is so stupid cuz wasn't she already living a good life by having friends?? She's already in COLLEGE. A grown ass woman, not even in highschool. But she's wayyy too narrow-minded and self-centered. Like baby nobody gave a flying f that you were neglected.. okay jk, but srsly?? Who is she??? She srsly needs to grow up and start looking at herself, I was literally worried just thinking about her grandma.
The only connection they had with their situation is that being outcast. I'm confused, cuz tf?? She wasn't even outcast or anything, she just felt jealous and I think it's the effect of having a self centered mindset, she felt she's so "abnormal". If she was so genuinely worried about the ml getting possibly outcasted, she would've been supported but noooo she said "I can't support you right now" LIKE WHO R U???? I'm so confused on that part. I keep forgetting that shee actually a college student and not a high schooler, and I honestly just want the ml and mc to tell her off that she has no business, and act like a grown ass woman. And also, stop being homophobic.
Right, a whole adult university student who outcasted her OWN, cause of her insecurities. Got sooooo into other peoples business that her grandmother with dimentua (who's supposed helped her to be ok) got out. All of it cause she wants to feel good about herself by "Saving them". WHEN NO ONE ASKED HER.
And also she said "I can't support you" GURL YOU OUTCASTING THEM. YOU BECAME YOUR OWN ENEMYYYYY
You would die if you have to live in the same society this manhwa is based in lol jk. Yes, she was talking about being outcast as in "not to be able to be normal as everyone else". When you're still young it's a shitty feeling to not be able to relate to everyone else. Imagine all your friends talking about being care for by their parents, be able to bring friends home & have your parents treat them and you get singled out because you have nothing. She is also not considered an adult yet in korean society for 1-2 more years (korean age) and lived in the conservative countryside her whole life. Her reasoning is childish but shows that she thinks & care for Mr.Kwon as a friend, and she doesn't want her friend to feel the same way as she does but at the same time like you've said, she is not mature enough to realize that would lead to her treating Mr. Kwon like an outcast. She is aware it's a shitty thing to do behind his back and apologized for that. She also doesn't know who Ho is at all, if they were both her friends, it maybe different.
Anyway, Village Chief will get to show off his adult maturity & guidance skill in the next few chapters and make her understand that. She'll also get to know Ho more & befriend him to understand this stranger isn't there to lead her friend astray.
I think the feeling of not being loved or cared by your parents can have a tremendous affect on you ad a child and seeing your friends having loving parents while you are in a dysfunctional one with yours would make you feel like an outcast because she's not like them.
She literally is not a grown woman. She literally left school and went back to the country side because she felt weird/outlasted and nowhere did she say she was homophobic. Same sex relationships in a small town is definitely looked down upon and given ML's background with being ostracized in the past (+cheated/scammed on), she probably doesn't want it repeated for so she tried to prevent it. Her intention wasnt to say oh i think same sex marriage is gross. Everything she has said indicated that people will view it as abnormal and she doesn't want him to feel like he's abnormal for being in one. Like I said, it's childish logic but it's not irrational or nonsense. She didn't go around blabbing to people and trying to get him to stop dating MC.
She literally said in the chapter that she was sorry and was wrong to Kwon. She also literally told him how it felt to be an outcast and feeling like you are weird and don't belong because he had a history of being like that and being hurt by it. Her actions were not correct but they weren't malicious. You can be sorry to somebody and still now support their decision. Nothing she said about how she felt he might have felt was about her. She told that story to explain her intent behind her action which was it fucking sucks feeling like you're weird and don't belong and it's something he had experience with before so because she cared for him, she didn't want him to feel like that down the line.
To answer your question, she literally was not having a good time. Having good friends doesn't make up for a shitty family home where your parents don't think you exist or care about you, something she has experienced since young.
This is the thing though, she didn't know if her friends really had "good fulfilled lives", she assumed they where, they could be in the same situation as hers or other situations, and they could be putting up a front. Plus she wasn't in a small village all the time, since "she went back to the village"; she used to live in Seoul and when she realized she was neglected she went to her grandmother's house.
Plus, she may not know Ho, but the village chief is 36, so even if she is not old enough, she should know not to meddle. She may not be legally an adult, but she is old enough to know right from wrong. She did apologize, but in the same breath, she said, "I can't support you, and you can do better." So it's half an apology.
She is an interesting character, but the author seemed to take a sudden sharp turn. It seemed to go towards maybe closeted bi or lesbian, and then went into a not well developed neglectful arc.
She thought being neglected by parents and being pawned off to her old grandma was normal until she learnt that it's not. So her world view shattered & her self-confidence plummed. When you're at that stage, everyone else's will look better.
She lived in the village with her granny then left for school & then went back when she couldn't fit in anymore. There's no clear timeline of when she left (i assume she left for HS then just entered college) but Mr. Kwon said he has known her since she was a baby & even helped raised her by sending her money for school. And school in Korea is hard, kids go to cram school after their normal classes & prepare for entrance exam since first year HS. I doubt she got out to play much or mingle with plenty of people until college to finally understand her own situation.
And in recent chapters, author referring a lot to society's idea of attaining happiness as a human: Make it to adulthood, get along with your peers, get a good job, get married, have kids...When you're abnormal, you're considered a failure & even death sentence in some areas. That's why in Asian countries like KR, JP or CN..., there's the social pressure to stay in line & not be abnormal. Hence why it's such a big deal to her to want to fit in & wants the only other person that cares about her to fit in & "attain happiness" too. There's also how she dressed when she just returned vs now. (All doll up & even got her eyes "fixed" to fit in with her Seoul peers vs chilling in pajamas all the time).
When she said "I can't support you", rather than be a raging homophobe just for the sake of it, she wants Mr. Kwon to rethink about choosing to be "abnormal" because they both know each other for so long. Even Ho himself says he's unsure about their relationship in the current situation (Ho's friend expressed also the same concern but in a nicer & mature way).
She’s responsible for healing her own trauma. You can choose to sever the generational trauma chain but she’s literally doing the opposite no wonder no one can empathize with her.
LMFAO dying over something like this?? Gurl I'd probably have a breakdown and that's it. And later realize that I'm GLAD to have friends and ppl around me. This btch is literally yapping about parents blah blah as if both the mcs have a happy family.
THIS TOO. Not only is she projecting her own trauma to others, but she's also actively acting as a victim in all of these. The fact that her last comment is "I can't support you guys rn" as if she didn't just basically harassed the ml with a lot of msgs and left her grandpa unsupervised. This girl literally lived the idiot mentality where she thought the world revolves around her.
I get what she's saying to say. She felt like an outcast/weirdo for having parents that don't love her to the point where it was fine if she didn't existed so when she saw what was going on, she was afraid that he would later feel the same being in same sex relationship and because she likes the village chief as a person, she didn't want him to feel ostracized or weird. It's childish logic but it makes sense.
Regardless, at least she apologized. Her actions isn't negated by her logic but at least it's understandable.