UNFORTUNATELY i do "like" people like Daniel does and it haunts me because i don't know if i ever liked anyone /like/ that or if i am capable of loving and being loved for that matter. it is always me liking the idea of a person without ever communicating with them, stupidly putting them on a pedestal, and borderline fantasizing about them in an almost parasocial kinda way but i swear i am in control of these fantasies and i am rational enough not to get with them (i can never fall in love) (i want a love that falls as fast as a body from a balcony) (I WANT TO LOVE but i simply can't get close enough to people)
UNFORTUNATELY i do "like" people like Daniel does and it haunts me because i don't know if i ever liked anyone /like/ that or if i am capable of loving and being loved for that matter. it is always me liking the idea of a person without ever communicating with them, stupidly putting them on a pedestal, and borderline fantasizing about them in an almost parasocial kinda way but i swear i am in control of these fantasies and i am rational enough not to get with them (i can never fall in love) (i want a love that falls as fast as a body from a balcony) (I WANT TO LOVE but i simply can't get close enough to people)