This is literally how I felt about Oliver Evans And Kagami Hayato. I was literally the first to buy their new voice packs and even though I don’t understand Japanese. Everytime they fucking breathe I’m like UGHHHH SO PRETTY SO HANDSOME SO MINDFUL SO DEMURE. I LOVE INNOCENT OLD ASS PRETTY MEN. SHACHOU PLEASE MARRY ME. I stayed up till 3 am to watch Rof-Mao 1st live new street new world AND SCREAMED WHEN SHACHOU DID THE “YEAAAAA” IN FULLCOUNT OMG HES SO AMAZING AND ADORABLE 35 YEAR OLD TOY COMPANY PRESIDENT (dude on my pfp). EVERYTIME HE LAUGHS I CANT HELP BUT GIGGLES HES JUST TOO ADORABLE UGHHHHHHH LIKE IVE ACTUALLY CRIED TO HIS VTUBER AVATAR BEFORE CAUAE HES JUST TOO PRETTY.
I haven’t ever really understood the V-tuber hype ever really… until two days ago. By chance I clicked a random v-tuber video cause I was bored and he was playing a game I just saw another streamer I watched playing. From there, I started watching more and then more and more. Then fucking hell, I had a obsession and a huge crush, i am downbad downbad. He is sooooooo BBG. It crazy, the things I would do for him are literally anything. Like even for characters like Gojo I haven’t been that downbad. My delema is I wished for him to be Bi like Shoto, but he is for sure straight and so I wanted to stop watching him because I knew I would have zero chance. But I really also don’t wanna stop watching him, I wanna know more about him, I wanna see him when he is happy, I wanna see him when he sad, I wanna hug him so tight and give him a thousand kisses. Guys I think I’m crazy, I have mixed emotions about stopping watching him and even if I do say I will, I don’t think I could stop even if I wanted to. Here I am being all depressed about not being able to be apart of his life going “I love him, I love him too much”, then another part of me is like “why are u being a paradoxical bitch”. I’m sad, mad, everything gosh I don’t even know what to feel.