This has awakened things in me and further ruined my chances of ever finding the perfect m...

Same ╥﹏╥. I like this so much ლ(´ڡ`ლ) and my inner self wants to recreate this but with whooo（/TДT)/

I'm married and my hubby is VERY much vanilla. We make it work fine. I'm a switch, so I'd love it if my hubby doms me or the other way around. He let's me buy toys and stuff from time to time to appease my desire for that stuff. Some day it will happen!