can someone recommend me something similar? I so wanna read something realistic and human

Same

I gotchu.

Ore To Joushi No Kakushikoto (make sure to read the sequel too)
Escape Journey
Hoshi wo Kazoeru Koto
Dear Gene
Life Senjou no Bokura
Ikasama Memori
Nichijou Complex
Blue Sky Complex
Playtime w hakdo
Here U Are
Perfect Propose

These are stories that actually depict being queer accurately (and stays away from yaoi tropes and conventions) in our world, great human drama writing where u actually feel like the characters are real people that may as well exist irl