I love my neurotypical friends so much but being the only autistic person in the group is so. lonely. it’s hard to talk to them about any of this stuff even though they know I’m autistic. I’m scared to talk about it because maybe it’s like. I’m blaming everything on being autistic. Or maybe they’ll brush it off as “sure everyone feels that way” and I’m scared to tell new people that I think I’ve grown closer to. That’s why I’m always a little bit thrown off by people who so easily can say “oh I’m autistic!” even though I just met them!?? And I never realized how much casual ableism existed in the world until I started to make new friends this past year.
Anyways my best friends are at a club at 2am on a Friday night and I’m home reading manga.
I love my neurotypical friends so much but being the only autistic person in the group is so. lonely. it’s hard to talk to them about any of this stuff even though they know I’m autistic. I’m scared to talk about it because maybe it’s like. I’m blaming everything on being autistic. Or maybe they’ll brush it off as “sure everyone feels that way” and I’m scared to tell new people that I think I’ve grown closer to. That’s why I’m always a little bit thrown off by people who so easily can say “oh I’m autistic!” even though I just met them!?? And I never realized how much casual ableism existed in the world until I started to make new friends this past year.
Anyways my best friends are at a club at 2am on a Friday night and I’m home reading manga.