I want a manhwa where the mc kills himself

Not gonna happen

I can only do as much as imagining and writing on wattpad

I'm sure there's some out there. I just don't know which. I've read many and none of them are like that.
I would go on reddit and ask around under boy love or manhwa reddit.

Manga or manhwa

https://www.mangago.zone/read-manga/i_will_die_soon/

it's not a bl, but the mc is forced to experience the moments leading up to the deaths of 13 other ppl as punishment by the entity death for his own suicide

THANK YOU SO MUCH