Am I the only one who dislike harari for leaving her child

honestly im hit or miss with it. Like it's obviously not good to abandon your child with his uncle but it seemed like it was out of fear that if she somehow consumed the blood or if anything bad were to happen to her, she didn't want Celphi to experience what the whole family has gone through. Deep down she cares about him but she can't really just become a mother for Celphi after 10 years ...lol