Well written indeed, I love your comment
Indeed, totally agreed with your insight on both of the characters ♡ (´°ω°｀)
Dam you were cooking, and I understand Mc personality, he also had the thought of the ml not liking omegas which also put Mc head in a mess like a regular teen would be and with Mc personality, having no one is something he already used to and this new thing obviously make him nervous to the core of not wanting to mess and doing the things he only knows how from experience
yup yup yup agreed
Heard that the author/artist got sick hence the latter half if the story? That's unfortunate and maybe.once they recover they can make side stories to flesh this story further. I think a promising story like this deserves to get more development.
Other than that, there's a fundamental issue we have to see here. It's that Eun-jae has low self-esteem and has an avoidant coping mechanism. We see him in a "broken" yet privileged family, we see him happy for his mother finding a new love and a new chapter in her life. As a child, you would normally feel a sense of loneliness or possession - imagine, your one and only parent was going to start a new family. That means a new husband, and maybe a new child. That new child will have a picture perfect complete family while you, a sickly and self-deprecating child have no other blood relation and you are a burden to your parent's financial state. I think Eun-jae has definitely thought of that why is why he doesn't feel that sort of grief when thinking about his mother moving on. It's because he's set in his mind he was insignificant, that he was a problem, that he was going to die someday.
The fact he's believed, even as a child, that his life was moot is a damage so irreversible that being loved won't be enough. In fact, being loved might only make it worse.
And that's what happened to him with Jin-hyeon. Eun-jae doesn't understand how to protect and nurture affection, he's seen first hand with how his parents split. No matter how much love his mother gives him, it won't change the fact he is a child born from temporary love, and now his mother is able to find a new happiness in another man. Eun-jae knows that if it's happened to his parents, it can happen to him and his future partner. Even if Eun-jae thinks he isn't suited to be in a relationship, he's already set in stone that his partner will leave him and whatever relationship they have is a temporary affection.
Cue, Jin-hyeon's existence. Someone like him is a double-edged sword to Eun-jae. As Jin-hyeon flat out stated: He loves Eun-jae more than Eun-jae loves him. Not all relationships have affections reciprocated equally, and that's true. The problem with their relationship was the massive and evident imbalance of their affections. Jin-hyeon loves too much when scaling it with Eun-jae, whose knowledge, experience, and belief in affection is drastic, will be overwhelmed by Jin-hyeon. Their relationship was a recipe for disaster that no medications can help.
Only licensed and professional therapy can actually guide Eun-jae in processing all these emotions and thoughts. Not Jin-hyeon.
It's not wrong for Jin-hyeon to love to this extent. Everything he has done in this story is what everyone would label as the "perfect initiative for communication". The problem is, these kinds of perfection is moot to a person who is terribly ill in the head.
People who are quick to label Eun-jae as frustrating either see themselves in him or that they do not understand the psychological layers of Eun-jae's mental state. He cannot be fixed by another highschooler. He cannot even love himself if he doesn't understand the foundation of a relationship, how to nurture, accept, and give affection, he doesn't understand how to maintain and protect relationships. All he understands is the transactional nature of relationships and how it is either a state of "existing or not existing". If you have it, then you have it. If you don't, then you don't.
Eun-jae never thought of living a long life, yet he found himself wanting to have Jin-hyeon's attention. He's already lost sight of Basics to Loving Yourself 101. He wants Jin-hyeon for whatever time he believed he has left instead of trying to live a long life to live through with Jin-hyeon. Right at the very start, you see the fundamental issue in Eun-jae's mentality.
And at the end, it's changed but for the worse.
He promised to love himself more, to put more love in their relationship, to make an effort in this relationship. These are all transactional actions that only further feeds his idea that he has always been the problem and he has always been the burden. I have to love myself more or else I am a burden again, I have to make an effort more of else I'll lose everything.
As much as I love both characters so much, it's just too much for 2 highschoolers to go through. Jin-hyeon is honest to a fault, he loves without restraint and freely. Eun-jae is not at the right state to accept that kind of love. Not now. Maybe the moment they graduate and go to college would be a great start of development. As highschoolers and starting to present your second gender, things will get messy. I think we can all agree high school is generally a mess, the height of puberty and all that. I have trust our couple will learn a lot along the way, it will just take time. Lots of it.
I hope we get side stories someday... These two were really good. But I have to say that the overall pacing was lukewarm, but I did enjoy the personalities of both MC and ML.