No bc i can't stop thinking about the symbolism of the jewel. It's the "jewel" that hurts Tarou, but it's also because of the jewel that he's fine in the end. (Just like the elderly beholder said)
If Tomoya was a normal human and was not born with the jewel, he wouldn't have to die so early and leave Tarou alone at the beginning of their adulthood. The jewel cut off the life they could've had together. A normal life, one that Tarou had been trying to give Tomoya—no praying on the street, doing homework, going to festivals, going on a trip.
But if Tomoya wasn't a god, then he would be truly be gone after death. At least, Tomoya became immortal and could accompany Tarou indefinitely, even if it's just through a phantom touch or a sparkly stone. Keeping the jewel means keeping the now-god Tomoya by his side, something that Tarou couldn't do, no matter how hard he tried, when Tomoya was still human.
Until the end, Tarou probably resented the jewel. Bc it symbolized Tomoya's godhood and impending death. He said that when Tomoya sticks to him, it presses against him and it hurts. Which means that although they were the closest, Tomoya's jewel/godhood hurt him. This is also why he wanted to kill "god" so he could keep the human Tomoya and not let him die. That's why he couldn't look at the jewel, despite being sparkly. For Tarou, the jewel meant the end.
But when Tomoya was gone Tarou couldn't give up the jewel, since it was Tomoya's. The number thing that reminded Tarou of Tomoya's godhood is also the only thing he left behind.
If the jewel reminded Tarou of Tomoya's godhood before, then now it reminds Tarou that Tomoya was once human too. That Tomoya was his childhood friend. His classmate. His lover.
In the afterword, it says that beholders are the ones that forgive and accept god, but constantly forgiving and being forgiving is tiring. When Tomoya was alive, Tarou had to always forgive him for being god (aka leaving him one day). When Tomoya was gone, Tarou stopped being a beholder. He could be selfish. He no longer had to forgive. He could pray to god, accept the jewel, and ask for forgiveness in return, because there is a god now. Tarou accepted Tomoya as a god on the day he became god and never a day before that.