*sigh* *cracks knuckles*
(Spoiler)(these citations are booktoki chapters, they split the novel into 20 chapters plus 3 chapters of side stories)
“There were various reasons for those who wanted to survive. Family, friends, or lovers, obsessed with life for them, and the people in the City also defeated death and survived to share life with them. I was able to meet him because I was alive, and he could come back to himself because he was alive.
For Seokhwa, Kwak Suhwan, and for Kwak Suhwan, Seokhwa was the reason for survival.“
(Chapter 20 on booktoki)
“"I'm sorry. Dr. Seok was sick because of me."
Kwak Soo-hwan's voice was fainter than before. His palms got wet and wet. I wanted to say it's not your fault, but my voice didn't come out, so I just shook my head.
"But you still have to live. Honey, do you believe me?"
Kwak Suhwan's whole body was soaked. It was bloody all over my body, as if it had just come up from t he blood, as if it was pouring blood from every hole in the body. But he was blindfolded by Seokhwa so that he could not see anything. Seokhwa held his hands with both hands until they faded white. I felt like I would never be able to come back to this bosom if I fell away from him.
"live."”
(Chapter 19 on booktoki)
“" want to touch your testicles."
He blurted out, surprising Kwak Soohwan. Kwak Soohwan turned his face leaned on the steering wheel sideways.
"Will touching my balls make you feel better? I'm not some panacea, Dr. Seok."
"Then I'll say it again. I want to hug you naked."
Dr. Seok knows nothing about human emotions.”
(Chapter 11 on booktoki)
“From the moment their eyes met, he walked toward Seokhwa without taking his eyes off him for a second. A blanket fell behind Seokhwa’s back as he got up from his chair. He looked at him without even thinking about picking it up. Was he seeing hallucinations now? Or was he here to give him permission to die without living anymore?
Kwak Suhwan stood in front of Seokhwa.
Seokhwa didn’t dare to reach out. If he did, he felt like he would turn into a mirage and wake up from his dream.
“I’m here, hyung.”
He took a deep breath.
Was that what his voice sounded like? In my memory, his voice was always refreshing, but now it was completely calm. His face was covered with longing in his clouded eyes, so I couldn’t see him properly. I blinked the tears that were blocking my vision, but they still piled up.
“I was really sick. Do you believe me?”
He smiled a little awkwardly.
“I’m sorry I’m late.”
“… … .”
“I’m sorry I left you alone.”
“… … .”
Kwak Suhwan, who spoke indifferently, laughed, but then his face hardened into a blank expression. He, who had taken a deep breath like me, distorted his face like a child, as if he couldn’t hold back his tears any longer.
“Dr. Seok, Seokhwa, Seokhwa hyung.”
He called Seok-hwa by all his names. As if all the calls in the world to Seokhwa were his own.
Only then did Seokhwa hug him as he cried. I caressed his cheek, which was filled with the cold air of Russia, with my cheek, and wrapped his body as hard as my memory. Kwak Suhwan also couldn’t stand it and locked Seokhwa’s body in my arms.
They were wrong. Pain is not the beginning of evolution.”
(Chap 20 on booktoki)
He opened his eyes wide and looked at him. Kwak Suhwan was breathing heavily. Even though he was seeing him with his own eyes, it didn’t feel real. We had spent much more time together than apart, but it felt like we had met again after a hundred years.
It was really Kwak Suhwan, Kwak Suhwan. He wanted to call him, but his voice still wouldn’t come out. He was safe. As always, Kwak Suhwan had come to find me.
“Honey, I called you.”
But as if he had no choice, Dr. Seok laughed, scolding him as if he knew that he was originally dull.
“… … Su-hwan.”
(Chapter 17 on booktoki)
“Kwak Suhwan did not take his eyes off Seokhwa, who had turned pale.
He wanted to get rid of everything. Choi Ho-eon, and those who don't believe in vaccines. Kwak Suhwan couldn't understand why Seokhwa would go to such lengths to save people. No, he understood, but he didn't want Seok-hwa to sacrifice himself.
Seokhwa, you're mine, but you're not the Tree of Life, and you shouldn't be everyone's savior, you should be mine alone..
Kwak Suhwan tightly shut his lips. His head felt like it was going to burst from the heat.”
(Chapter 16 on booktoki)
“"Major Kwak."
Seokhwa tightly grasped Kwak
Soohwan's arm.
"I'm glad you're okay."
Only now did Seokhwa realize the person in front of him. Even if the ground beneath his feet collapsed when he said he didn't remember him, if he was unharmed, that was enough.”
(Chapter 12 on booktoki)
“Today, he painfully realized how precious Kwak Soohwan was to him. Just the thought of losing him made him feel a deep pain.” (Chap 12 on booktoki)
“Seokhwa, sitting on the rear seat on the central bulging seat, held onto Kwak Soohwan's sleeve tightly. Despite the uncomfortable position, as if afraid Kwak Soohwan would disappear somewhere, he leaned his body against him, seeking warmth.” (chapter 12 on booktoki)
“Seokhwa replied insensitively to Choi Ho-eon, who said he would not listen to the answer.
"Yes."
"Why? Are we a family?"
"We are not a family. The only person in my family is Major Kwak."” (Chapter 17 on booktoki)
“I had been wrong all along. Kwak Suhwan had not been concentrating on getting his body back to normal. From the moment he opened his eyes until now, all of Kwak Suhwan’s mind had been on Seokhwa. That’s why only the shell of a body trying to prepare for departure remained here.”
(Chapter 20 on booktoki, context is he suffered 3-4 bullet wounds and spent 5 months recovering to which ppl though he was crippled cause he acted like an idiot the entire time)
The story speaks for its self
the kind of emotions that you cant get from the manwha, dr seok looks emotionless all the time but reading his monologues shows he's more than that
He's supposed to be emotionless, the characters have much more thoughts shown in the novel. (which in my opinion, I believe is because since there's so much detail for the plot they needed to fit into the manhwa, there isn't really much space left for it in the manhwa) Either way, Chaepali cooked up the masterpiece that is the novel and RoGer-Nim cooked with the art and character desgin. ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶
Someone spoil me. How obsessed are these two with each other? Are we talking radio storm obsession or even better (worse)??