I don’t think it’s a shallow problem at all :) human beings are social beings and wanting to experience companionship on a deeper level that comes from being in a relationship is something that’s very common. Have we idealized and romanticized what we see from those romance shows and movies? Yeah a bit. But we also see different forms of love irl around us too and I think it’s quite understandable wanting to experience that for yourself as well <3 I hope you’re able to find that for yourself soon! It would help quite a bit to put more effort into taking initiatives of going out, getting to know more people. But it’s a long process so take your time, there is no set age to find that type of love for yourself!
no ones too old for anything, even if you’re not in your highschool or college years you have your whole to figure out what you want and to get it. relationships aren’t any less genuine based off what age you start them
I am also obsessed with smut, but have ideal dream and scenarios of it and I guess it really affects my daily life as an adult because I got more time to consume in fiction. While forgetting to look in the reality of my situation.
I guess being at home with my family get me too dependent of them, like cooking and cleaning. So I think it is better for me to have my own life and get independent so that I have less time obsessing with reading smut.
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I also think you have a lot more time to balance your life. So keep fighting!!
While those kids are still learning, but I hope they wont get similar to me being obsessed with BL and other smut.
Consuming romance and smut materials everyday bc i could only wish to experience an inch what they're having ٩(๑❛ᴗ❛๑)۶ how does other people do it, be in a relationship even after a break up while here i am still fantasizing what it feels like to hold someone's hand and go on cute dates despite my age
People i talk to say petnames and holding hands are cringey for couples and im just thinking how lucky they must be to have someone to be able to do those cringe stuff (▰˘◡˘▰) ive been too accustomed consuming smut due to loneliness that i cannot see the day of letting them ho just bc ive grown way too old to be consuming and fantasizing (￣∇￣")
My only wish is for younger people to not grow up like me, it's very dark and lonely out here. Also, trying to change your format of writing is harder than I thought haha. I just needed a place to vent off since none of my family and friends knows I've been feeling like this, everyday, for years now. It's frustrating, depressing, yet I cannot tell them that because it's too shallow of a problem. Sorry.