WOWW do yob know where i can read the novel for free
You captured my thoughts on this novel perfectly. While the angst is easily the best part of their relationship, I have to say, I prefer their short and sweet interactions more in the second and third novel.
Of course they're the cherry on top. But what really got me going was the chasing and missing each other moments hahaha. I'm a whore for those moments in bls lmaooo XD but the sweet moments are just sooo nice to read. From the manhwa storyline so far, the fear that ILAY went through when he realised Taeui was listening on him in the study with his brother and he might think bad of him are also the kind of moments I LIVE for...for me these moments are also the BESTTTT
When I read it years and years ago, I downloaded it from somewhere random
Tbh...this novel is the true definition of guilty pleasure. Ilay serves that cunt facecard so hard that I can't even be mad. The novel is actually so intricately and detailed, especially their angst moments are better in the novel than in the manhwa though I think they did an ok job with it and they've toned down the brutality of their sex scenes. This might be the only bl novel I've read where every sex scene they had was so hard to get through, but they've fluffed it for the manhwa.
Also Ilay is such an interesting character and I love that the author didn't "change" him with the power of friendship into a decent guy by the end, or give him some traumatic childhood thing. I love that they even made a slight jab with Taeui even speculates that his fucked personality could be that stereotype. But Nah. Ilay was just born with a fucked personality and the right amount of privilege to aid and assist it. It isn't like he doesn't have emotions - which is exactly how psychopaths operate - and this novel shows it so well. They have emotions, they are just incapable of feeling them deeply. But overall, it'll be hard to not love someone back who only sees you worthy in the whole world when he doesn't even have the emotion for it, plus that undeniable facecard, and he got that "overachiever" rizz PhD, plus he has the best equipment, dirty talk pro, would burn down the whole forest to find you, would drop everything to look for you - what I also loved about the portrayal of Ilay is that both Taeui and Ilay changed each other.
In the end, we all want to be someone's only exception and these two crazy fuckers are just that.
I cannot wait to see how they'll draw the middle east prince arc lmao XD and then the showdown with Shinra (Xulin?) Taeui is also quick thick-headed but he'll get around by the end. If anyones waiting for a love confession, it won't happen lol. At least until the extras I think.
I really love this story for how detailed and non-cliche it is in portrayal of fucked characters. Also how Taeui never forgets just how fucked Ilay actually is - he doesn't romanticise it. He knows he's a monster but it's HIS monster. I fucking love this dynamic.
One other thing I liked about the story is that there is no redemption whatsoever of Ilay, just acceptance and adjustments. Ilay is a clinically diagnosed psychopath and he stays that way. I loved that. It felt real.
I would recommend people to read the novel since it has more details and more insight into their relationship and Ilay as well. The angst part of their relationship was THE BEST.