that’s fucked up bro

I feel like yall are undermining Erinas will here lol. She clearly WANTED to do these things. She wasn’t pressured or forced. She wanted to make him happy, whatever that meant. And for Alfeas, that’s magic. It’s clearly explained after she’s able to communicate on a higher capacity during the trials

if she’s with alpheas since the ball, then alphea’s influence is very very very big on her. not sure how many years went by after their meeting at the ball (i forgot or it might not have been mentioned), but mentally, she’s still a teen or young adult even after marrying alpheas. it’s undeniable that she wanted to make him truly happy by sacrificing herself. that’s so selfless of her. but can we say she was in the right mind or at the appropriate age (mentally) to make that decision? i’m not sure about that. i’m saying that, alpheas in her eyes might not look like a husband only. he guided her, made her learn this and that, took care of her and everything. she’s heavily dependent on him. he’s her everything.

I feel like that would have been the case if the treatments weren’t working before ultimately ending her life. Because the note was reflecting back on periods she was in the lab, before the actual full run of the experiment. So I feel like — while she was gaining better cognitive function during the research period — her actions were more so done in a state where she could make such decisions consciously/with awareness. And she ultimately chose to sacrifice herself ++ mention all the good he can do for the world. I don’t think the latter would make sense if she only saw him in a “imprinted, elder figure, my entire world” way.

but even before the actual experiments, the incident happened. the incident where his so called friends came over and he called her an idiot. she gave him a yes after he told her about the experiment. this is wayyy before the experiment was conducted.