I meant that for one there are stories where the mc killed themselves at the end. There was one internet novel that made me upset for weeks on end. The whole story was about a guy battling mental illness and the illness won out in the end.
Also the way it makes me feel every time I read this. With how sad our mc is it should have a tragedy tag. He was orphaned as a child. Then abandoned. He has severe commitment and trust issues because of his abandonment. The one time he tried to connect he was abandoned again only to get into a relationship to find out he was deceived right from the start. He is broken enough that his mind drifts to. thoughts of how he can’t bear it anymore. It’s definitely tragic even if it heads to a happy ending.
I got scared, i thought he would end himself after that inner monologue. I just want him to be happy