Hmmmm

I don't know if this is my lack of sleep but the flow of the story is hard for me to appreciate. There are so many situations where i'm like "Huh?" while reading this. I wanna like this so bad but it's difficult to do so, for now. And what does zhenya mean about the people at the party "not real"? I hope I'll be answered with kind words because I genuinely don't want to drop this manhwa despite me not liking this at the moment.