I feel like often times when growing up in an unhealthy or traumatic environment you just slowly start cutting out the part of your personality that makes us children. ( this is so tmi on my end lol sorry ) but growing up in a single parent household after my dad past. As the oldest I cut out all of my wants putting myself on the back burner and “ maturing “ by working odd jobs at 12 and all throughout school . There was so many things I wanted to do with my money but I put my wants to the side and became an adult . My therapist says it’s a natural thing to do when I’ve been in a situation where my needs haven’t been met because I put others before my own mental health.
I only just realized once I got my own home and started doing things with my bf that I never did growing up . ( sorry again for the random over sharing ; )
Real! Gotta be honest, you even could say “yeah it’s your parents first life as well” well yeah, doesn’t mean she has a right to ruin the first two decades of mine? (Not only my mom but we get it)
Sooo I don’t really have a question, but I think some people may also need to hear this.
So for context: I had therapy yesterday again and my psychiatrist told me smth I usually know but hearing it from a real life person hit me differently.
“It’s not your fault, you were a kid and needed support yourself” had me almost crying tbh.
Also continuing to think of it, it’s seriously so logical, how is a kid supposed to act like an adult, when biologically everything inside you screams “children”? How in fact did I personally even manage that to be so mature and parent-like, even manage school when I was a literal kid??
Well everything is hitting me now and I don’t feel like almost 21, but as if I was 16. So all in all I guess it’s okay to be immature and childish, when you didn’t had the opportunity to be a kid.
Idk maybe whatever I just said was able to make someone feel less miserable for a second. May yall have a great week and y’all’s pillow be always cold on both sides <3