How should I even write to explain what I'm feeling rn!? I have not read this manhwa for s...

How should I even write to explain what I'm feeling rn!? I have not read this manhwa for so long because of all the violent stuff I saw on shorts and clips and people warning about reading the manhwa. But after reading I knew that, everything about this manhwa is top notch and I'm just left in a daze now that I've reached the end. Oh god...what did I just read. One thing I know very clearly is that Jooha and Dooshik were made for each other (duh) and god please let me marry someone like Dooshik (let me mope around TT) because fuck I have fallen so hard and bad and my gallery is so full of him it's almost embarassing. The most I cried while reading was when Dooshik cried for the first time.
I don't know how to put it but that was one cinematic experience lol. That last fight in Pilwon's villa was chef's kiss. And the sexiest chapter was the side story when Jooha has his virgin but also not virgin cherry popped cuz DID YOU SEE DESPERATE DOOSHIK!? Imma rant at this rate but ahhhhh I loved it!!