Yeah, so I was right. It is chapter 30.
So what happened is before they never had penetrative sex but in chapter 29, the top went completely crazy and they ended up having penetrative sex for the first time (before they always ised toys). In chapter 30, it's like the "morning after," and he reveals that he was a virgin right up till last night. And from there on, he starts acting like a virgin, and for the first few chapters, after that, he doesn't even dare to touch him. He moves away, and then they reunite somewhere else again, and if I remember, the bottom ends up making the first move since the top doesn't have it in him to hurt him again.
A lot of people are saying it's like they are a completely different couple from there after. So I think it's possible to enjoy the story when you start from there, but it probably won't feel like a redemption arc if you do.
ummm im on chapter 12 and i need this bitch to die soooooo bad like its not even a joke i want to push him off a cliff does it get better